Chapter 68: Painful Choice
Dropping the phone, Nangong Ying felt waves of defeat. In the face of power, she was so insignificant. The fairness and justice she once believed in had become a joke here. So-called fairness was merely something spoken for the weak to hear.
She wasn’t strong enough yet, her value wasn’t great enough, therefore she could only be played with wantonly like a toy.
If her value was greater than anyone else’s, if the movie couldn’t be made without her, if the company couldn’t make money without her, if everyone couldn’t live without her… if her value could reach that point, then what would she have to fear?
But not now, she didn’t have that influence…
“Damn it, damn it!…”
Nangong Ying felt truly unwilling.
She didn’t want to be played with wantonly, like a toy, but she had no choice. If she wanted to continue surviving in this circle, she had to pay, she had to bow her head.
She had said it before, to achieve her ideals, she would not hesitate even at the cost of everything.
Now, it was time to fulfill that promise.
“I’m sorry…”
She buried her head, hugging her trembling body. At this moment, she wanted to make a clean break between the past Nangong Ying and the future Nangong Ying.
She wanted to become the queen of this era.
She wanted to become the most brilliant star of this era.
She wanted to lead this era to supreme glory.
Now, she had to start.
Pressing a few keys, dialing the phone, she just sat there, quietly waiting for the echo. Today, the phone rang for a long time before anyone answered. In the quiet room, only the beep beep beep sound echoed, and that dead heart beat. The rest was almost surrounded by despair.
“Hello, Linna.”
She told herself, she was right.
Thinking of her father’s disapproval, the movie she worked so hard to film, and Sister Yuexin’s painstaking soundtrack. She didn’t want it all wasted.
She wanted to continue surviving in the entertainment industry, she wanted to build her own career in the entertainment industry.
Standing at the pinnacle of the era must be an extremely happy thing; that was her lifelong dream. To become superior, one must make a clean break with the past.
“What’s wrong, Nangong? What do you need?”
“…Remember what I told you before? About wanting you to develop in the entertainment industry.”
Previously, Orange River had sent someone to find Yu Linna. Although this matter was beyond Nangong Ying’s expectations, it didn’t hinder her from doing the next thing, and even happened to lend her a hand.
Yu Linna was her best friend. She would absolutely not allow others to hurt her. She had always thought so.
But this time…
She couldn’t protect her well anymore.
She gritted her teeth, trying hard to keep her voice steady. Although she tried her best to remain calm, her face was already contorted. If there were other choices, she would absolutely not make this choice.
Orange River had already said, whether she was willing or not, Yu Linna’s matter was set in stone.
Furthermore, her star path, her movie, her dream – to continue, she could only choose sacrifice. She wasn’t a saint, great enough to emerge unstained from the mud. She could only make the cruelest choice among difficult options.
“Nangong, I also said, I haven’t thought it through yet. I… I’m afraid of failure. I don’t dare to try anymore.”
She gripped her own hand, trying hard not to make any strange sounds. Actually, at this moment, she couldn’t help but want to cry.
She had many choices she could make, but insisted on choosing the one she shouldn’t have.
Wanting to become famous, wanting to stand at the top, required sacrificing others. Why had no one told her such a cruel truth before?
“Linna, listen to me. You’re like me. You want to build your own career, you want to become superior. I know you. You are definitely unwilling to be ordinary, right?”
Dream, what a beautiful word.
How many people threw themselves into fire and water for their dreams, destroying themselves?
Some people, for their dreams, gradually forgot their own appearance.
The dream one wants to realize is a difficult path.
“That being said, but…”
“Think about it. If you become superior, it means everyone knows you, everyone admires you, everyone knows your name, and your name resounds throughout the land.”
These words were still very tempting in Yu Linna’s ears. As a poor child who couldn’t eat her fill since childhood and wandered everywhere, how could she not want to live the life of a superior person? To be known by everyone, respected by everyone, what a wonderful thing that would be.
If possible, she wanted this kind of life. Only then would she not be looked down upon.
“Have you ever thought, you might still have relatives in this world you’ve never met? If your name becomes known to the world, you might have a chance to find your relatives, find your roots.”
“!–”
Yu Linna’s heart trembled.
This sentence was like a sharp sword stabbing steadily into her chest, suffocating her.
As an orphan, she must have thought about finding her roots, finding her birthplace. Although she had lived two lives, she had never experienced the taste of family, never knew what relatives felt like.
Her heart always longed for a sense of belonging, longed to find her roots, longed to find her relatives. Even if the other party wouldn’t recognize her, she just wanted to know how she came to be.
Since childhood, she didn’t know what her parents looked like, didn’t know how she came to be. Only one day did she discover she looked more and more like a mixed-race person, realizing her parents might come from far away. But besides this, she knew nothing.
“Nangong…”
“Linna, want to come over? As long as you become famous, you might be able to find your belonging. Haven’t you always wanted a home? Instead of letting others find you, why not find others yourself?”
Her heart was moved.
In this life, she had never been so moved.
Yu Linna was a child of bitter fate. She enjoyed nothing since childhood, living a life of uncertainty. Her previous life was better; at least there was an orphanage to rely on. But in this life, she had nothing.
Many times, she fantasized about the scene with her parents by her side. Many times, she fantasized about the scene of herself becoming a parent.
For a child who had nothing, bloodline was always her weakness. She also wanted to find relatives related to her by blood. Only then would she feel that she was truly living in this world.
“I…”
She bit her lip, trying hard to calm herself down.
She took a deep breath, just stood there. Time passed minute by minute, second by second. It was unknown how long passed until that teardrop fell to the ground. Only then did Yu Linna come back to her senses.
“I want relatives…”
Her voice was not loud, even a bit hoarse, but that was her wish.
No matter what, what Yu Linna ultimately wanted was nothing more than a sense of belonging. She probably also knew that her parents might no longer be in this world, otherwise why weren’t they by her side?
But this world was so big; she always wanted to find her relatives.
Even if the other party didn’t acknowledge her, what did it matter? Because she just wanted to know how she came to be.
The name Yu Linna was the only gift given to her by her relatives in this world, and also the only information she could know about her parents. When she was very young, she began to wander. She had nothing on her, only an exercise book with the three characters “Yu Linna” written on it. The exercise book was blank inside, nothing written, only the name on the cover was so conspicuous.
“I understand. Then your thought is?”
“I will go… to the highest and farthest place, to places others can’t go.”
She wiped away her tears and said so.
She had already made her decision. Things had come to this point; the water couldn’t be taken back.
“Okay, I knew you would agree.”
In the future, Yu Linna didn’t know where her path would lead, nor whether she could reach the end. But at least she had a goal again. In the past, she simply wanted to eat her fill. Now she wanted to find her roots, find her origin.
Having a sustenance was always good.
At least, she was no longer lost, no longer hesitant.
And Nangong Ying, after hanging up the phone, the expression on her face could no longer hold. She covered her face, letting out bursts of roars.
“Ahhhhhhh!!”
She frantically threw the pillow around like mad, shouting like mad.
Tears fell drop by drop, unstoppable.
Only just now did she realize she had actually done such an excessive thing. That shouldn’t have been done, yet she did it all. That was the person she swore to protect! How could she be so selfish? How could she do this…
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry…”
She kept saying sorry, constantly blaming herself.
For her dream, for her future, she made the greatest sacrifice.
Yu Linna trusted her 100%. It was precisely because of this trust that she didn’t hesitate. Because she felt that Nangong Ying wouldn’t harm her.
But she never thought that Nangong Ying would trample on this trust.
Wanting to survive in this cruel world, one could only be cruel to others. What a difficult thing to accept. In just a few short days, Nangong Ying transformed from an arrogant brat who didn’t know the immensity of heaven and earth into a woman who would stop at nothing. How long had it been!
Orange River’s power was there; Nangong Ying couldn’t shake them. She could only endure the humiliation and climb up, strive to climb upwards. Only by proving herself with strength, making herself a superstar, could she influence their decisions.
But now, she had to compromise.
If she was blacklisted here now, she would never have another chance.
She had to gain higher fame through filming movies, let her name resound throughout the mainland. For this, she had to pay any price. Even if it meant stopping at nothing, she had to fulfill her dream. And complete her revenge.
“One day, I will make my name resound throughout the world! At that time, I guarantee I won’t let anyone hurt me!”
She roared this sentence out.
It was also from this day that the past Nangong Ying bid farewell to her. After this day, it was a new Nangong Ying. Her legendary path also officially began.
This queen, her future story, was still very long.
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