Chapter 60 p2
The illusion was almost over, and Xin Yao, still holding Li Xu’s photo, was about to speak when a tear rolled down her cheek.
She felt a sudden wave of sadness, but she knew it wasn’t her own.
Those who paid with their souls to make a wish, their attachments were strong, their emotions raw and unfiltered.
To better serve these clients, the Bright World allowed a fragment of their consciousness to accompany the host during their missions, allowing them to witness the events unfolding.
It was the original owner who was crying now, her sadness, her grief, transmitted through that fragment of her soul, making Xin Yao’s own tears flow.
She was crying for her past suffering, for the years of abuse and neglect, for Li Xu’s belated apology, an apology she had waited a lifetime for.
She had suffered so much, her life a constant struggle, everyone taking from her, no one offering comfort or kindness, let alone an apology.
Until Xin Yao.
Seeing Xin Yao’s strength, her determination, her unwavering commitment to fulfilling her wish, she had realized what she had missed, the life she could have had.
And she had finally realized that she owed herself an apology.
I’m sorry, she thought. I’m sorry for letting you suffer so much.
But there were no second chances, no do-overs. She had her revenge now, and that was enough.
She wouldn’t dwell on the past. She would remember this, and in her next life, she would live for herself.
If she had a next life. If she remembered.
Sensing the original owner’s gradual acceptance, her release from the pain of the past, Xin Yao didn’t move, letting her tears flow freely, her silent grief a comfort to the other soul.
Let it go.
And remember, in your next life, to love yourself, to live for yourself.
Xin Yao, her heart filled with a genuine happiness for the original owner’s newfound peace, had been so engrossed in her emotions that she had forgotten where she was.
She was sitting on the bathroom sink, in the middle of the night, staring at a photo of Li Xu, her face streaked with tears.
And just then…
The bathroom door creaked open.
The bright light spilled out into the hallway, illuminating Xu Jingyu, standing there in her nightgown, her gaze fixed on Xin Yao’s tearful face, the photo of Li Xu clutched in her hand.
Xu Jingyu’s eyes flickered like candle flames, her mind racing.
She had been a light sleeper, and she had been awake when Xin Yao got out of bed.
Assuming she was just using the restroom, she hadn’t disturbed her.
And Xin Yao had even tucked her in, a sweet gesture that had warmed Xu Jingyu’s heart.
But Xin Yao had been gone for a long time, and Xu Jingyu, worried, had come to check on her.
She hadn’t expected to find her like this, crying over a photo of her ex-boyfriend, in the middle of the night.
Xu Jingyu was insecure.
Especially when it came to Xin Yao.
She had a nagging feeling that Xin Yao was like the wind, a fleeting presence she couldn’t hold onto, that one day, she would leave, just as she had in a distant, forgotten past.
And everyone knew how much Xin Yao had loved Li Xu, her six-year relationship a testament to her devotion, her sacrifices for him countless.
Even Xue Ning had expressed her surprise, her disbelief that Xin Yao could have loved such a man.
Didn’t Xu Jingyu care?
She had never asked about Xin Yao’s past relationship with Li Xu.
She hadn’t asked about the scar on her wrist.
She hadn’t asked about the engagement party.
Wasn’t she curious?
No.
She cared, deeply.
She was jealous, possessive, wanting to erase Li Xu from Xin Yao’s life, from her memories, especially after what he had done to her.
But she hadn’t asked.
Because she had been afraid.
Afraid that Xin Yao still had feelings for him.
After all, it had only been a couple of months since their breakup, and Xin Yao had started dating Xu Jingyu almost immediately.
Could she really forget someone she had loved so deeply, so quickly?
Six years with Li Xu, and just a few months with her, not even long enough to film a movie.
Did Xin Yao truly like her?
It wasn’t Xin Yao’s fault. It was Xu Jingyu’s own insecurity, her fear of losing Xin Yao, her love so intense that it made her cautious, her touch hesitant.
She had never asked, had been afraid to ask.
Afraid of hearing the words she dreaded most: I don’t like you.
And then what? Would Xin Yao leave her?
And if she did, could Xu Jingyu let her go?
Impossible.
So, she had kept her silence, her anxieties bottled up, the sight of the scar on Xin Yao’s wrist a constant reminder of her pain, a wound that refused to heal.
She had wanted to marry Xin Yao, to bind her to her, no matter the cost, no matter the method.
And now, seeing Xin Yao crying over Li Xu’s photo, her worst fears had been realized.
Xin Yao didn’t love her.
Xin Yao was going to leave her.
Xin Yao, startled by Xu Jingyu’s sudden appearance, realized how incriminating the scene looked, like she was mourning her ex-boyfriend.
And judging by Xu Jingyu’s expression, she had clearly misunderstood!
Xin Yao quickly put away her phone, wiping her tears, and tried to explain.
“It’s not what you think…”
But Xu Jingyu didn’t listen, her mind a whirlwind of emotions, the last thread of her control snapping.
She walked towards Xin Yao, her movements slow and deliberate, her presence a dark cloud, her gaze intense and unreadable.
Xin Yao couldn’t decipher her expression, but she felt a flicker of fear.
Xu Jingyu’s gaze lingered on Xin Yao’s face for a moment, then she gently wiped away her tears, her touch surprisingly tender, before capturing her lips in a fierce, almost brutal kiss.
It was different from her usual passionate kisses, this one colder, harder, more desperate.
It was a kiss filled with possessiveness, with a desperate, almost frantic love, like a thorny vine wrapping around Xin Yao, refusing to let her go.
Like a cage, its bars closing around her, trapping her forever.
And yet, her hands, cupping Xin Yao’s face, were trembling.
Xin Yao understood her emotions.
She knew her lover was different, her initial inability to understand love now replaced by a fierce, almost overwhelming devotion, her jealousy and possessiveness a constant reminder of her insecurity.
Seeing Xin Yao crying over another man’s photo, it was understandable that she would be upset.
Xin Yao had wanted to wait, to let Xu Jingyu vent her emotions, then explain.
But Xu Jingyu’s kiss deepened, her passion escalating, her desire for Xin Yao a consuming fire, unlike her usual tenderness, her touch now hard and demanding, as if wanting to brand Xin Yao with her mark, to claim her as her own.
And then, before Xin Yao could even protest, Xu Jingyu’s hand was between her legs, her touch insistent, her body pressing against Xin Yao’s.
How could she do this now, before they had even talked?
But Xu Jingyu, lost in her passion, her desire for Xin Yao overwhelming her, didn’t wait for an answer, her body moving against Xin Yao’s.
Xin Yao almost cried out, her legs weakening, her eyes, filled with tears, looking up at Xu Jingyu’s face, inches from hers.
Xu Jingyu’s eyes, in the bright light, were terrifying, their dark depths swirling with a dangerous intensity, her emotions raw and unfiltered.
For a moment, Xin Yao was afraid.
She saw a flash of the beast she had known in her previous life, Pei Yu, her eyes, during her possessive phase, narrowing into reptilian slits, her gaze cold and predatory.
Pei Yu’s eyes and Xu Jingyu’s were different, yet they evoked the same primal fear.
And both of them, in those moments, had been lost to their instincts, their rationality consumed by their desires.
And Xu Jingyu, in this life, was even more possessive than Pei Yu had ever been.
Xin Yao wanted to explain, to push her away, to calm her down, to resolve the misunderstanding.
“Stop… listen to me…”
But Xu Jingyu’s lips silenced her, her kiss deepening.
Xin Yao, finally losing her patience, pushed her away, her voice sharp.
“Pei Yu, are you crazy?!”
Her words, echoing through the quiet room, made Xu Jingyu freeze.
She stood there, motionless, for a long moment.
Then, slowly, she lowered her gaze, her eyes, dark and unreadable, fixed on Xin Yao’s face, her voice a husky whisper.
“Yaoyao, who is Pei Yu?”
Xin Yao froze.
Oh my god!
Had she just said Pei Yu’s name?!
She had been thinking about Pei Yu!
As her heart pounded in her chest, Xu Jingyu repeated the question, her voice soft yet insistent.
“Who is Pei Yu?”
Xin Yao looked into Xu Jingyu’s dark eyes, her throat tightening as she swallowed nervously.
Well, this was awkward.
It seemed her little white lie had backfired spectacularly.
This wasn’t just a simple misunderstanding that could be resolved with a few apologies and a passionate embrace.
Xu Jingyu looked like she was about to lose it.