Chapter 23: The Gap
She left. Without warning, without any surprise.
It wasn’t that she didn’t try hard enough; she simply wasn’t good enough, unable to meet their expectations. Yes, she worked hard, gave it her all, but she just wasn’t good enough. She couldn’t deliver what they wanted.
Looking at the 500 yuan in her hand, payment for a week of strenuous rehearsals, the money felt scorching. She loved money, but this was the first time she didn’t want it. What good was money? It wasn’t what she truly desired.
Yu Linna harbored a dream: to rise above her current predicament. Seeing Nangong Ying climb higher and higher, the distance between them growing, she felt increasingly uneasy. She wanted to catch up, to close the gap, but she couldn’t. She just couldn’t.
For the sake of survival, she had to accept the 500 yuan. Faced with the harsh realities of life, dreams were a luxury. She compromised, unsurprisingly. She felt disgusted with herself.
She put the money away, and somehow, a few tears fell onto her hand, dampening the red banknotes. Tears streamed down her face as she sat on a park swing, unable to control herself. She took out a tissue to wipe her tears, but they kept flowing. She looked up at the sky, the bright sun shining on her, the glistening teardrops sparkling.
Sometimes, she just didn’t understand why she couldn’t do anything right. She wanted to change her life, was that too much to ask? She just wanted to escape poverty; she hadn’t done anything wrong. And she had tried so hard, but fate never seemed to be on her side.
Yu Linna always cried, at the drop of a hat. It was probably her nature. Whenever she encountered something sad, she would cry.
At the Grand Theater, in the rehearsal hall, Shen Wenwen was the first to complain to the person in charge about Yu Linna’s sudden dismissal, finding it incomprehensible.
“Sir, I don’t understand your thinking. We’ve been rehearsing for so long, and now you’re replacing her just like that? Are you sure we can perform well tomorrow? Xiao Yu may lack experience, but she works hard. Can’t you give her a chance?”
Although Shen Wenwen initially didn’t think much of Yu Linna, even commenting that her acting lacked spirit, Yu Linna was still a child, and she didn’t have high expectations for her. It was the way the person in charge treated her, like an adult, that she found unreasonable.
After all, the girl worked so hard. Since she arrived, she hadn’t rested, choosing to spend all her time studying the script instead of socializing with the others. She even asked questions during breaks and didn’t slack off after going home.
Wasn’t all this effort to move forward, to get closer to Nangong Ying?
“Wenwen, calm down. It wasn’t easy for me to let her go either. She was recommended by Miss Huang, and out of courtesy, I kept her, but this child really can’t do it. She can’t act in a play; her clumsy acting just doesn’t cut it. If I continue to use her, the entire performance will be ruined!”
“But she tried hard! Can’t you give her a chance?!”
“Effort alone isn’t enough; I need results. In a performance, everyone works hard, not just her. If she can’t blend in with the rest, the entire performance will be ruined. I can’t let one weak link ruin the whole thing. You’re a professional actress; you understand this, don’t you?”
Shen Wenwen fell silent.
Indeed, no matter how she looked at it, she was the irrational one.
Seeing Yu Linna reminded her of her past self, always wanting to help others. But she knew, she couldn’t help her. Those without ability would be eliminated quickly; that was reality.
In the park, Yu Linna dried her tears and walked home alone. She had taken the day off, so she could go wherever she wanted. She had an extra 500 yuan in hand, enough for her expenses. She understood that this sadness was temporary; it would pass. She simply wasn’t skilled enough yet; she would gradually improve.
The streets were bustling with traffic and pedestrians. Yu Linna blended into the crowd. Crossing the road, at the commercial Times Square, a large screen displayed the live broadcast of the National Singing Competition.
Yu Linna crossed the street and looked at the live broadcast, captivated by the content. There were many pedestrians on the street, and many stopped to watch the broadcast. The National Singing Competition was famous nationwide and had a large audience. Many young people on the street stopped to watch the competition, the exciting content captivating them.
The National Singing Competition was nearing its end.
“Now, I announce that the champion of this year’s National Singing Competition is—! Nangong Ying from Guangnan City! A round of applause for the winner!”
Clap clap clap!!
Applause erupted on the screen, dazzling lights flashing on the stage, and the audience watching the live broadcast cheered. As a well-known national program, every year, the announcement of the champion was met with enthusiastic cheers. The champion of the National Singing Competition, what a prestigious title! It was a golden key to the entertainment industry.
Yu Linna looked up at the screen, a wave of sadness washing over her.
On the screen, Nangong Ying wore a beautiful gown, meticulously dressed, her beautiful blue hair styled in braids, her slender figure captivating many male viewers. Her expertly applied makeup was incomparable to the typical internet celebrity face; it was a natural beauty.
Compared to actresses in the entertainment industry, she was no less stunning. It was hard to imagine that this charismatic person was a nationally ranked athlete just a few years ago.
“Miss Nangong Ying, congratulations on becoming this year’s champion.”
“Thank you.”
Receiving the award on stage, Nangong Ying maintained a polite smile throughout, neither overly enthusiastic nor cold. This was Nangong Ying, a person with inherent pride.
“You’ve fought your way from a small city-level competition all the way to the nationals, unexpectedly winning the championship. You could be considered a dark horse in this competition. Can you share your thoughts on winning?”
“Of course. Actually, I didn’t prepare a speech, so I’ll just speak from the heart.”
The audience laughed, amused by the winning girl’s candidness. The atmosphere immediately lightened.
“I started taking music classes when I was five years old, after begging my mother for a long time. You could say I’ve been interested in music since I was young. Later, due to family reasons, I couldn’t continue and joined the martial arts team instead. Although I won awards there, it didn’t feel like what I wanted.”
She delivered her acceptance speech calmly, showing no stage fright, even improvising her words. This made many in the audience like her. The winning girl was young and beautiful, naturally attracting many fans.
“By participating in this competition, I wanted to fulfill my long-held dream of winning a championship. Now, my dream has come true. Although it’s many years late, I don’t think it’s too late at all. I’ve always wanted to express myself on stage, to show everyone a different side of me. I want to use this stage to tell my parents that I can do it.”
“Thank you for your speech.”
After the applause, the stage lights brightened, and music played. The spotlight shone on Nangong Ying, making her dazzling. She stood there, basking in the adoration of everyone. No one doubted her because she was the true protagonist, destined to shine.
Yu Linna watched her good friend, standing in the spotlight, surrounded by people, and she knew that the distance between them had truly widened.
She had known from the beginning that Nangong Ying and she weren’t the same. Nangong Ying was a genius, destined for the stage. Yu Linna wasn’t. She didn’t even have the chance to stand on stage; she could only watch from below.
She recalled her past experiences with Nangong Ying. In the beginning, Nangong Ying stood up for her when she was bullied by a few thugs. Afterward, they became friends, sharing everything. Nangong Ying always shone brightly, never stopping her forward momentum. But Yu Linna remained unchanged, stuck in the same place.
“Miss Nangong, is there anyone you’d like to thank in particular?”
“Of course. First, I want to thank my mother for supporting me in this competition, and also thank my father, thank you for trying to stop me from participating. If you hadn’t stopped me, how could a stubborn person like me have made it this far? Also, my music teacher, I have to thank her for teaching me music theory, and I want to thank my mentors for their guidance. Finally… I want to thank a friend. Although she didn’t come to Beijing, I still want to thank her.”
She paused, looking at the camera with sincere eyes.
“If you’re watching my live broadcast, I want to say thank you for being my friend. I’ll always be your support. Don’t forget to go for barbecue with me when I get back.”
Cheers, applause, and screams blended together. That statement was enough to fuel people’s imaginations.
Nangong Ying didn’t explain, just smiled.
Yu Linna lowered her head, tears falling one by one. Why would she do this? The gap between us is so wide, yet she still considers me a friend. It was too much. How could such a friend not be loved?
This feeling was truly complex. Seeing her pull ahead, she couldn’t feel any jealousy, only a simple wish that she could keep up.
Suddenly, a hand patted her shoulder. Yu Linna looked up and saw a woman wearing glasses standing before her.
“Aren’t you Yu Linna? What are you doing here? Today’s a day off.”
“…Miss Chen?”
A chance encounter, a new opportunity arose.