Category: Shion’s Notes

  • Shion’s Notes 83

    Chapter 83: That Moment of Warmth

    Coming out of the shower, her body was already clean and white, her previously messy hair now smooth and straight. The dust on her face was gone, revealing fair skin that looked like it could break with a touch. Her baby-fat cheeks made one want to pinch them. The clothes she wore might be a bit large for her, but wearing them wasn’t too awkward.

    Long golden hair fell vertically, reaching near her hips, her blue eyes full of spirit. Although her figure was still immature, if she developed, she would surely be a stunning beauty.

    Sure enough, as long as a person looked good, whatever clothes they wore wouldn’t look strange. Even if these clothes looked a bit large, and the body type wasn’t quite suitable for her, wearing them just didn’t feel awkward. Even Ye Zhiyun couldn’t help but praise; this child was indeed a natural dress-up doll.

    But it was indeed true. Yu Linna herself was very good-looking. Her outstanding appearance always made her easily stand out in a crowd, ever since elementary school. It was precisely because she was good-looking that she was noticed and entered the entertainment industry. Although she had now withdrawn, she probably couldn’t forget her days in the entertainment industry.

    “Isn’t it quite nice? My clothes are big, but they fit you just right.”

    Yu Linna was indeed beautiful. Although she didn’t have Ye Zhiyun’s figure, just based on her face, she might be even prettier than Ye Zhiyun.

    “Mmm…”

    Already used to being praised like this, Yu Linna just nodded.
    Perhaps before, she would have felt happy about it, but now being praised, she couldn’t feel happy. You know, it was precisely because she was beautiful that she suffered so much.

    “Come on, eat something. I know you’re quite hungry. I haven’t cooked for a long time either, my cooking skills have declined a bit. Just don’t mind it.”

    Patting her shoulder, she led her to the dining room to eat. Ye Zhiyun knew how to cook, just rarely did it herself. As for the taste, anyway, it couldn’t possibly be better than a restaurant’s.

    But eating food personally cooked by someone else was a first. Before this, Yu Linna rarely ate food personally cooked by others. Even when living in foster families as a child, the food she ate was rarely prepared by others. More often, she was given money to go eat something.

    “What should I do in the future?”

    In a daze, Yu Linna asked the most realistic question.
    Although she had regained her freedom now, she had nothing left. The money was paid back for her; she instantly owed someone over eighty million. She probably couldn’t pay it back in this lifetime.
    Also, she had no place to live, no job, no relatives. Where should she go? How would she live her life from now on?

    “You can stay at my place for a while. My house is big enough for two people. Before you stabilize, I will be responsible for your living.”

    Ye Zhiyun didn’t hesitate at all, directly making the decision for her. And this decision left Yu Linna completely bewildered.

    “But, this…”

    “No more buts. You were bought by me now. You do whatever I tell you to do.”

    Ye Zhiyun wasn’t hesitant like her. She knew clearly what she wanted to do, and she knew what she was doing. Just one Yu Linna, she could still afford to support her.
    Besides, she had already prepared herself. If not, how could she possibly help her pay back the 80 million debt? Actually, she herself hadn’t realized that in her heart, she had already given Yu Linna a place.

    Yu Linna said nothing, just silently lowered her head. Her words were domineering, direct, yet warmed her heart. This feeling was truly strange. She had never been treated like this before, so she felt a wave of warmth.

    Sitting down, under her watchful eyes, Yu Linna silently picked up her chopsticks. So many years, it was her first time eating at someone else’s home, eating food cooked by someone else for her. One bite down, the taste wasn’t exceptionally delicious, but for Yu Linna, who hadn’t eaten anything good for many days, this was probably the best meal she had ever eaten in her life.

    Alone since long ago, never loved by anyone, never liked by anyone. She never knew what it felt like to have parents around, never knew what it felt like to eat around a table. She only knew that seemed like a very distant thing for her.
    But this meal, she seemed to understand something.
    Although different from what was on TV, she seemed to somewhat understand this feeling.

    Eating bite after bite, long starved, how could she care about the taste? She just knew to stuff it in. Ye Zhiyun didn’t cook many dishes, four dishes and one soup, specifically preparing more meat to cater to Yu Linna’s taste.
    And Ye Zhiyun herself barely touched her chopsticks, just sat there, watching her eat. Just watching her eat seemed to satisfy her.

    Yu Linna’s eating movements slowed down. She held the bowl and drank the soup. Countless memories flashed through her mind, entering her stomach along with this bowl of soup at this moment.

    (“Why won’t you listen! This jinx!”)
    (“Whoever wants her can take her! Anyway, our family definitely doesn’t want her!”)
    (“Blonde hair? No way! Where did this foreign devil come from? I don’t want her!”)
    (“We don’t welcome you! Hurry up and leave! Don’t disturb our lives anymore!”)

    It seemed her entire life had been spent drifting.
    Since when did she start longing for a fixed place? Since when did she get used to being alone? Is it that the more disappointments one experiences, the less hope one carries?

    Putting down the bowl, tears fell drop by drop, instantly streaking her small face. She wanted to hold back, but couldn’t. Tears kept flowing.

    “What’s wrong? Why are you crying? Doesn’t it taste good?”

    Seeing her cry, Ye Zhiyun panicked, quickly stood up, went to her side asking solicitously, a far cry from her previous domineering appearance.

    “No, I… It’s just the first time I’ve eaten food someone cooked for me…”

    Saying this, she continued to cry.
    This crybaby seemed uncomfortable if she didn’t cry for a day. Once she started crying, no one could stop her.

    Ye Zhiyun patted her small head, smoothing her hair, a trace of pity in her eyes. Compared to her, Ye Zhiyun was actually much happier. She grew up in a wealthy family, parents by her side. And since childhood, she ate well, wore warm clothes, had whatever she wanted. There was a time she even spent a hundred thousand yuan buying lottery tickets, letting all that money go down the drain.
    If her father hadn’t sent her out to train, given her the opportunity to do business, she might still be the little princess of the Ye family.
    Because of her efforts, she became Miss Ye in the industry, not just a pretty face.

    But Yu Linna had nothing. She had no parents, no relatives, had to rely on herself for everything. Besides having a good face, she had nothing, knew nothing.

    “Don’t dwell on past pain, nor cry for present happiness. You belong to the future.”

    This might be the gentlest words she had ever said to Yu Linna since they met.
    By now, she finally admitted that her relationship with Yu Linna was no longer one of dislike. On the contrary, she quite liked her.
    She was like her relative, couldn’t tolerate others hurting her. If anyone dared to hurt her, she would be the first to stand up and retort. Yu Linna belonged to her, not anyone else. She wouldn’t let others hurt her anymore.

    Everything Orange River did would pay the price sooner or later. But before that, she had to make herself stronger, strong enough to protect anyone.

    “I will never trust anyone easily again. I swear, never again…”

    Held by Ye Zhiyun, she leaned against her body, murmuring these words.
    Growth always involves pain. This pain, imprinted in her heart, she would remember forever.
    This pain of being betrayed by a friend, she would also remember forever. From now on, her life no longer had Nangong Ying.

    And Ye Zhiyun just held her, saying nothing.

    “Yu Linna, I…”

    “Nana.”

    “Hmm?”

    “Call me Nana. Those close to me all call me that.”

    “Okay, fine. Nana.”

    Hugging the small person in her arms, Ye Zhiyun smiled slightly.
    This name sounds really nice.
    She didn’t know who Yu Linna’s parents were, but she really had to thank them for giving this child such a nice name. She really liked the person who owned this name.
    Yu Linna, Nana, this name sounds really nice.

    The blonde girl hugged her, enjoying this brief warmth. Henceforth, she didn’t need excessive words; she only needed this moment of tenderness. Reality was so cruel; only here with Ye Zhiyun could she find warmth.
    How she wished time could stop like this, stay here forever.
    This way, they could always stay like this.


    Ye Zhiyun pressured Orange River, forcefully redeeming Yu Linna’s personal freedom. This incident caused a stir within Orange River. No one expected Yu Linna to have such a background, actually making Miss Ye willing to spend 80 million yuan to “redeem” her.
    Even if Miss Ye could earn a lot of money, 80 million was not a small sum. Ye Zhiyun invested in movies, did e-commerce, online sales; how much did she have to earn to make that much money? Paying the penalty for Yu Linna was equivalent to making herself penniless, with no benefit at all.

    “In my opinion, let’s just let this matter go. If we really provoke her father to come knocking, I think it’s not worth it. Besides, Yu Linna is just a newcomer who can be tricked anywhere. No need to make a big fuss over her. Let’s just take this money and be done with it. Anyway, we are not the ones losing out.”

    Yu Tianchen proposed during the meeting.
    Although the senior management had different opinions, they felt these words made sense. Angering the Ye family for an unknown nobody was very unwise. Besides, Ye Zhiyun had already agreed to give the money. With this money in hand, they could at least invest in another movie. Very worthwhile.
    Thinking this way, the meeting gained direction; their discussion found a path. Ultimately, they also accepted Ye Zhiyun’s proposal of eighty-one million. This matter finally came to an end.

    Thus, the contract incident that had troubled Yu Linna for so long finally drew to a close. However, this was not the end; it was just the beginning of another story.

  • Shion’s Notes 82

    Chapter 82: The Love She Craved

    Ye Zhiyun stood before them, utterly fearless. Although she was the younger one, the man in the suit felt like a younger brother in front of this woman.
    Despite carrying his superior’s orders, facing the forceful Ye Zhiyun, he felt the fear of being suppressed. Crucially, Ye Zhiyun’s gaze was somewhat terrifying, like she wanted to kill someone.
    This point was exactly like her father.

    “Miss Ye, please don’t be like this. This is Orange River’s business…”

    “Contracts can be terminated. The condition for termination is paying the penalty. This common sense, I don’t need to teach you. Since I’m willing to pay the penalty, don’t you understand my meaning yet?”

    “No, if you do this, it’s difficult for me to report back…”

    Terminate just like that? How could it be so easy? The man in the suit didn’t dare to go back and tell the boss that Yu Linna’s contract had been terminated.

    At this moment, Yu Linna tightly gripped her clothes, leaning against her, as if only this could bring her a sense of security.
    Being protected like this, being guarded like this, felt truly incredible. This feeling, she had never had before, was so warm.

    “The 80 million penalty, I’ll add another million for you. This one million is the handling fee. If you think it’s still not enough, I’ll find my father.”

    Reaching this step, she had already brought out her father. She didn’t believe they still wouldn’t understand what to do.
    Originally, when she entered the investment industry and did business, she deliberately avoided her father’s name. She didn’t want to do business under her father’s name. At least these past few years, her money was earned by herself; her father only gave her the initial funds.
    This was the first time she brought out her father’s name.
    Her father’s face, she believed even if Orange River wasn’t afraid, they would at least have some scruples.

    Sure enough, the man in the suit hesitated. Reaching this step, he couldn’t say anything more. After a few minutes, he made a phone call, spoke to the person on the other end, and finally let out a long sigh.

    “Alright, Miss Ye, you call the shots. Your father’s face, we must give it. This person, starting today, she belongs to you. You bought her.”

    With that, the man in the suit left, leaving only a back view. Ye Zhiyun finally breathed a sigh of relief. The headache was dealing with Orange River later, sending them the eighty million. Such a huge sum, Orange River really knew how to extort. No one could be more black-hearted than them.

    Moreover, using so much money to buy Yu Linna must seem very foolish to others. You know, this amount of money could make Orange River laugh for days. Although Orange River was rich and powerful, not caring about this bit of money, having it was better than not. And Ye Zhiyun originally hoped to use this money to invest in two or three movies; she had already made plans.
    Unfortunately, all this money could only go down the drain.
    Everything was for Yu Linna.

    She looked at Yu Linna, who was no longer crying but silent with her head down. She let out a long sigh and took her small hand.

    “Let’s go. I’ll take you to my place. I know everything now. You have nowhere to live, been living outside for a long time.”

    Yu Linna didn’t speak, letting her hold her hand, not resisting. That dirty little hand, held by her, felt so warm.
    That back view, clearly not broad, why was it so reassuring?
    Her best friend became the person who hurt her the most. The enemy with the worst relationship pulled her back from the abyss of hell.


    Yu Linna didn’t speak on the way, just let herself be arranged. She still couldn’t believe she had escaped Orange River. When Ye Zhiyun spoke those words, she was finally no longer Orange River’s person; she regained her freedom.

    Although Ye Zhiyun had only just learned what happened to her, being able to rush over immediately and pull her out, she was still quite grateful. She owed Ye Zhiyun a favor, and this favor might never be repaid in a lifetime.

    “Come in. I’ll find you some clothes. Go take a shower. Look at you, what a mess you’ve become living in the park these days.”

    Entering Ye Zhiyun’s home, the familiar spacious hall, the beautiful sofa, everything was unchanged. It was just that her identity was different now.
    She felt a bit dazed, feeling somewhat confused about herself. In a short period, she received too much information, making it difficult to digest all at once.

    “What’s wrong, Yu Linna?”

    “…Why?”

    “Hmm?”

    “Why help me?”

    She didn’t understand, really didn’t understand why Ye Zhiyun helped her.
    80 million was definitely not a small number. How could she bear to help her pay the debt? Where did she have the value worth her help? She had nothing, knew nothing. Where was she worth her doing this?

    “I’m just a complete fool. I actually believed those beautiful lies, jumped into the abyss without hesitation, and almost ended up eternally damned. I don’t understand, where am I worth you doing this? I have nothing. Why did you help me? Why did you pull me back? For a fool like me, wouldn’t it have been fine to just die on the tracks?”

    She smiled bitterly, tears welling up in her eyes.
    Yu Linna had nothing left. She had lost everything: no money, no power, no home, no relatives, even her best friend was gone.
    She didn’t understand why she was still living here.
    And it was Ye Zhiyun who let her live.

    “Don’t say that. Living is always hard, but dying is easy. But, if you die, there’s really nothing left.”

    She didn’t know how to comfort her, just seeing this girl’s appearance made her sad.
    Yu Linna had truly suffered for almost twenty years, enjoying nothing. Fate only brought her jokes.
    She was always losing, always enduring, but she couldn’t endure anymore. She couldn’t be strong anymore. Living was too hard for her; she couldn’t do it anymore.

    “But! I have nothing! Nothing at all! I don’t know where my value lies anymore. I’m so tired, living is so tiring. I really wanted to just die like that, but you insisted on pulling me back! It had to be you, Ye Zhiyun! It had to be you, this most annoying person, who helped me! You won’t let me die, you want me to live well! You’re too much!”

    She pounded on her, although those soft fists had no strength at all.
    Ye Zhiyun held her hands. These dirty hands hadn’t been washed for days, already grimy. But she didn’t mind, still holding them in her hands.

    “I want you to live.”

    “I don’t want to!”

    “I want you to.”

    “Why!!”

    “Because I don’t want my life without you. Although you’re annoying, bothersome, always ruining my good times with Muqing. But… I don’t want you to get hurt. I don’t want to see you all alone again. Just consider it me doing a good deed. I want you to live well. No matter how difficult life is, I hope you live well.”

    Why want Yu Linna to live? Why was that? Ye Zhiyun didn’t understand either. Just, she wanted to do so.
    A life without Yu Linna, she didn’t want it.
    Even if it was just the daily quarrels, just days of mutual hostility, as long as Yu Linna was there, she could accept it.

    “You don’t understand! You don’t understand my feelings! Being betrayed by my best friend, do you know how much it hurts! I thought I could find my blood relatives in this world, but I found out everything I did was futile! This world didn’t even leave a corner for me! I’ve had enough! I don’t want to live so hard anymore! Getting up before five every day to do morning work, having to go to school, having to work part-time after school, at noon too, at night too. Doing different jobs every day, repeating every day.”

    “I’ve been living in constant fear! I’m so afraid that one day I won’t have any job left, so I desperately look for work, constantly searching! I’m afraid one day I won’t even be able to pay the rent and will be kicked out by the landlady to sleep on the street! I’m so scared, so scared that one day I’ll just starve to death like this…”

    “People always say the world treats kind people with kindness, but… that’s a lie. There are no fairy tales, only bloody reality. Now, I have nothing left…”

    She cried, cried again.
    Yu Linna loved to cry, but this time, she cried very loudly, pounding on her while crying, venting all the negative emotions she had held in for so long.

    Ye Zhiyun said nothing, letting her vent, patting her head, soothing her mood.

    Being treated like this, Yu Linna’s heart gradually softened, but the crying still didn’t stop. Her pounding movements also slowly lessened. Most of the grime on her face was washed away by the tears.
    She grabbed her clothes, just leaned her head down like that.

    “I really want a home, really want a family. Why do other children have parents, but only I don’t? I also really want parents, wuwuwuwuwu…!!”

    The thing she craved most deep down burst forth in words at this moment.
    Yes, deep down, Yu Linna was just a child longing for a home. She listened to Nangong Ying and went to be an actress, also holding the hope of finding her relatives. But things went contrary to her wishes; her dream’s sails were broken before it even set sail.

    She had been lonely her whole life, with no one accompanying her. How she longed for family to be by her side. The love missing since childhood, now, she craved it more and more. As one grows up, the things lacked in childhood become increasingly desired.

    Ye Zhiyun hugged her. Although this body was dirty, who cared? She just wanted to give her a trace of comfort.

    “You still have me.”

    No matter what happens, she would stay by Yu Linna’s side, always.

    “But you’re not them! You’re not my family! This isn’t what I want!”

    “It doesn’t matter. What they can’t give you, I will.”

    She herself didn’t realize how much she already cared about Yu Linna. Without Yu Linna, she seemed unable to go on. Her side could no longer be without her.

    And Yu Linna’s heart also slowly softened. She wailed loudly, just crying, disregarding everything. She was truly too tired. Having lived for so long, the hard days lasted too long.
    Now, she could let go of those things.
    Finally, she could let go properly.
    Finally, she could live on.

  • Shion’s Notes 81

    Chapter 81: Protection

    Several more days passed. She had forgotten exactly how much time had gone by because she simply hadn’t counted. She only knew the money in her wallet was dwindling, and the things she could afford to eat were gradually decreasing. At first, she could barely afford to stay in a hostel, but now, she could only sleep on the streets.

    Now, she slept on a park bench every day, using a picked-up newspaper as a blanket. Fortunately, the weather hadn’t been cold these past few days, so sleeping outside wouldn’t easily lead to catching a cold. But even if she did catch a cold, she had no money for treatment. It was best not to get sick.

    Sigh…

    Looking at the single red banknote left in her wallet, her money had truly reached its limit. Accommodation and food always cost money these days. No matter how much she saved, there was still a limit. Now, it had reached the end.

    It seemed like she hadn’t showered for several days. She had been living in the park for a few days too. The smell on her body was very unpleasant, but she couldn’t help it.

    As a girl, sleeping outside was actually very dangerous; it was easy to be targeted by criminals. So these past few days, she didn’t dare comb her hair, deliberately letting herself become disheveled, not washing her face, looking dirty. But her conspicuous appearance was still attractive, and there were still many punks who wanted to take advantage of her. At these times, Yu Linna would run to a place very close to the police station, making these people afraid to approach.

    But this wasn’t a long-term solution. Yu Linna knew that if she continued living like this, something would happen sooner or later. She couldn’t keep living outside, no matter how comfortable it seemed.

    If only she were a boy, Yu Linna sometimes thought. If it weren’t because she was a girl, she wouldn’t face these troubles.
    Besides, sleeping outside meant many mosquitoes, which often bit her. She didn’t like sleeping in the park either.

    “It’s reached the limit…”

    Her money had truly reached its limit. She couldn’t continue like this. At most one more week, and she would have to start begging on the street. To think she had fallen to this state, it was truly laughable. If she hadn’t signed that damned contract back then, none of this would have happened. She could still be the ordinary Yu Linna.
    But now it was impossible; she could never go back no matter what.

    “Why…”

    Many times, many times, Yu Linna asked herself this question: why did she, specifically, encounter this kind of thing?

    She knew there was only one way to solve the current predicament: compromise with Orange River, sell herself out. But she was unwilling to do so, no matter what. Even if she starved to death, she wouldn’t sell her innocence cheap. If people laughed at her, let them laugh. Anyway, she wouldn’t give her most important thing to someone she didn’t like.

    But…
    She really couldn’t hold on much longer.
    Since it’s come to this, why keep living? Isn’t it tiring?

    Yu Linna smiled bleakly, dragging her heavy suitcase, disheveled, walking aimlessly in the big city. She felt she had lived tiredly enough. Since her previous life, things had never been good. It seemed her life was always full of hardships, always unable to eat her fill. She thought becoming an actress could change this situation. She thought as long as she became famous, she could be superior to thousands. But the fact was, she thought too much.
    Yu Linna was just a slightly better-looking girl. Her talent wasn’t outstanding.

    “Enough, it’s enough, so tired…”

    Money gone, stomach growling with hunger, legs losing strength, cold and hungry, she felt she had lived tiredly enough.
    She didn’t want to live anymore.
    Because living was really too tiring.

    “Dad, Mom, why did you give birth to me? I live so tiredly. It would have been better not to be born, let me dissipate along with the memories of my previous life…”

    Two lines of clear tears flowed down, washing away a layer of dust from her face, also taking away her strength.
    She was desperate enough, helpless enough. Anyway, no one would help her. Anyway, the people at Orange River were just playing with her. Then… she might as well find release sooner. Rather than carrying this unpayable debt, it was better to find release early. Anyway, she had no relatives in this world; she wouldn’t burden anyone. That way, it should be fine…
    Dad and Mom must have abandoned her because they didn’t like her, hated her. Since that was the case, she might as well leave this world.

    Yu Linna’s lonely figure shuttled through the city. No one would notice this girl; no one would care about her. She wandered alone, walked into the train station, crossed countless tracks alone, and found the railway tracks below the platform.

    Looking at the train tracks, the place where trains passed line by line. It must hurt a lot if she lay down and was run over by a train. But the pain would only last for a moment. No matter how painful, it couldn’t compare to the pain in her heart.
    The heart betrayed by Nangong was still bleeding now. Such pain was deeper than the pain of being run over by a train.

    She looked up at the sky, a line of clear tears falling. This was the last time she would cry in this world. She came into this world crying, and left this world with tears. Henceforth, she had nothing left to take away.

    “Goodbye, Yu Linna…”

    She murmured this name, the only thing she received from her parents in this world. She had nothing left to linger for.
    She took a step, intending to jump down just like that, to spend the last moments of her life on those train tracks.

    “Get back here for lao niang!” (Note: 老娘 (lǎo niáng) is a coarse way for a woman to refer to herself, implying toughness or anger.)

    Suddenly, a hand reached out from behind, grabbed her collar, and forcefully dragged her back.
    Yu Linna was startled, struggling frantically, but the person holding her pulled even harder, forcefully pulling her back. Her strength was surprisingly great; Yu Linna couldn’t resist either. When Yu Linna looked up and saw this person’s face clearly, she couldn’t help but show a surprised expression.

    “You… why are you here?”

    “You bastard! Do you know how worried people were when you disappeared? Why didn’t you call me when something happened? Why didn’t you find me? Why are you so worrying!!”

    Ye Zhiyun’s angry roar pulled her back to reality, leaving her completely stunned.
    Facing her accusations, she had no words to refute. Now, surprise occupied most of her emotions.

    “You’re simply a bastard, a complete bastard! Disappearing for half a month! If I hadn’t learned about your situation from your landlady, I’d still be kept in the dark!”

    Ye Zhiyun was very angry, really very angry. In places she didn’t know, Yu Linna actually encountered such a big incident. What angered her more was that she knew nothing about it.

    At this moment, several men in suits came from the platform. They walked hurriedly, their faces anxious. Seeing Yu Linna still standing there, they finally breathed a sigh of relief.

    “Thank goodness, Miss Yu, you didn’t seek death. If something happened to you, the boss would hold us accountable.”

    The men in suits said so.
    Yu Linna looked at them, her body trembling again. She couldn’t help but take a few steps back.

    “You guys… have you been watching me all along…”

    “Not really. But no matter where you go, we can find you. We were really afraid you’d seek death in a place we couldn’t see. But, Miss Yu, your willfulness should end here. Our company still needs you for filming. Go back, the leader will forgive you.”

    So no matter how far she ran, they would still find her. No matter where she went, Orange River wouldn’t let her go. As long as she was Orange River’s artist, they wouldn’t let her go, simply because she was female.

    “No, don’t! I don’t want to go back! Please, let me go! I don’t want to be an actress anymore!”

    Yu Linna trembled, hiding behind Ye Zhiyun, desperately clutching her clothes. Her appearance made one’s heart ache.

    Ye Zhiyun looked at the girl behind her, the girl desperately clinging to her. She felt an inexplicable heartache. She had just learned what happened, but seeing the girl like this still made her sad.

    “Miss Yu, stop making trouble and go back. You still have work to do.”

    The man in the suit took a few steps forward, wanting to pull the blonde girl out from behind Ye Zhiyun. But the blonde girl screamed and cried, unwilling to come out from behind her. She absolutely didn’t want to go back to that place, not even if she died.

    At that moment, Ye Zhiyun reached out her hand, slapped his hand away, spread her left arm to shield Yu Linna behind her, her eyes filled with anger.

    “Who dares touch her!”

    When she shouted this sentence, the men in suits were stunned. The momentum of that sentence suppressed everyone. Even though they were all adults, in front of Ye Zhiyun, they felt an oppressive force.

    “Miss Ye, please don’t interfere with our work.”

    The man in the suit frowned slightly, speaking unhappily. If it weren’t for giving face to Ye Zhiyun, he wouldn’t have wasted so many words.

    “I said, who dares touch her. Try again, I’d like to see who dies first!”

    Her face had never been so terrifying, that face, like a demon king from hell. Just seeing that face sent chills down one’s spine, making hair stand on end.
    Just by relying on her imposing manner, Ye Zhiyun was enough to make people stop in their tracks.

    “But, Miss Ye, she is an artist under our company. You cannot interfere with her work! She signed a contract! If she doesn’t follow arrangements, that’s a breach of contract. Breach of contract requires paying a penalty of 80 million!”

    “…”

    Ye Zhiyun turned her head again to look at Yu Linna behind her. Yu Linna had already cried into tears, tightly clutching her clothes, her dirty little face mixed with tears, smearing onto her clothes.

    A penalty of 80 million was really not a small sum. Let alone Yu Linna, even she herself felt afraid. Such a huge number, ordinary people simply couldn’t pay it back. With Yu Linna’s situation, she couldn’t clear it even in a lifetime.

    If it were before, she wouldn’t care.
    But…
    Seeing this crying face, she was moved. She still couldn’t sit idly by.

    “Alright, 80 million is 80 million, I’ll give it. Her breach of contract penalty, I’ll pay. But I have a condition: terminate her contract immediately. From today on, she no longer belongs to your Orange River.”

    The craziest thing Ye Zhiyun had done in her life, also the proudest thing she had done, wasn’t how much money she earned, wasn’t what correct decisions she made, what position she attained, but that she chose to pay this 80 million.

    “You can’t be joking, right, Miss Ye? 80 million! What does that mean! With your strength, paying this sum isn’t that easy, right!”

    Not just the man in the suit, even Yu Linna was stunned. They couldn’t understand Ye Zhiyun’s actions.
    80 million was not a small number. Even for Ye Zhiyun, she couldn’t easily take it out.
    And this amount of money was enough to invest in filming a major production movie.

    “I said, I’ll give it. Do you have any objections?”

    “But, Miss Ye, you can’t arbitrarily take people from our side. Our Orange River…”

    “I said, I’ll give it! Where’s all the nonsense? I’ll write you the check later. If you obstruct me again, you’re going against me, Ye Zhiyun. Don’t even think about doing business with me in the future!”

    Perhaps her actions seemed incomprehensible to others.
    But, what did it matter?
    She liked it.

    No one could snatch Yu Linna from her hands, no one. She now belonged to no one but her, because she was bought by her, the unique Yu Linna.

    And Yu Linna probably wouldn’t have thought that this former enemy, in her most destitute and desperate moment, was the first person to stand up. And the friend she trusted most abandoned her in the end.

    The sun was about to come out.

  • Shion’s Notes 80

    Chapter 80: The Beginning of Ruin

    She walked down the street. The sky was gray, and raindrops had begun to fall. If any weather could describe her mood, the current weather was probably the most fitting. She couldn’t figure out how she had fallen to this point today.

    Continuing to stay at Orange River was unrealistic. Sooner or later, she would become Orange River’s toy. She finally understood why Orange River was so disliked by female actors in the circle. This place was inherently a playground of capital and fame, a battlefield for men. Women were naturally the weaker ones.
    Yu Linna finally understood this principle.
    Unfortunately, she understood it too late.
    Her naivety had harmed her, leading her to eternal damnation.

    What could she use to compete with Orange River? No power, no influence, no money, and now signed to an indenture contract. Being subjected to the unspoken rules was probably just a matter of time. She didn’t want to continue like this.

    “Better run away…”

    Thinking this, Yu Linna silently made up her mind. As a girl, she was unwilling to just hand herself over here, no matter what. She had to resist her fate.

    Thus, from this day on, Yu Linna disappeared from Orange River…
    Yu Tianchen called her, but she didn’t answer. She didn’t even go to school anymore. She just hid herself away. Orange River also discovered this person had disappeared but didn’t show any panic.

    Yu Linna thought she could hide from Orange River this way, hide from everything, then escape, completely leaving this city. She had also thought it through: if it really didn’t work, she would just hide in another city.

    But she was ultimately too naive. She thought she could hide from Orange River this way, yet Orange River knew her thoughts the day after she disappeared. How could they just let her go? Since she was already an artist under Orange River, she had to bring profit to the company. Now, she hadn’t even earned money for them, hadn’t even been played with as a toy. How could they possibly let her go?
    Orange River just let her continue playing, continue escaping, not in a hurry.


    Yu Linna hid at home, locking the door from the inside, drawing the curtains, living on cup noodles every day, surviving one day at a time. School was abandoned, life was abandoned; she just wanted to hide here.
    Anyway, no one would help her anymore. Then she would just hide. Wasn’t there a saying, “The most dangerous place is the safest”? Then she would hide at home, never going out even if it meant death.

    She covered herself with a blanket, dark circles under her eyes growing darker, her complexion becoming sallower, surviving on that little bit of cup noodles every day. Nangong was gone. She had to learn to take care of herself properly; she had to be strong. Even if she didn’t want to, she had to accept it.

    “So bland…”

    Eating the just-prepared noodles, she lightly complained.
    She thought she could live a life of eating well and wearing warm clothes. Now, let alone eating well, it was already good enough not to be caught for the unspoken rules. She was still hiding here eating noodles; how could she talk about eating well and wearing warm clothes?

    Yu Linna now understood. It was impossible for her to become a star. From the very beginning, others were deceiving her. Thinking carefully, where did she get the strength, where did she get the ability to be noticed? Wasn’t it because she was good-looking? If it weren’t for being good-looking, who would care about her existence?
    And precisely because she was good-looking, that’s why she…

    She truly regretted it now. If she had the chance to choose, she swore she would never sign that damned contract again. Knowing it was her indenture contract, she absolutely wouldn’t touch it.


    Bang bang bang!
    Suddenly, there was a loud banging on the door. Yu Linna’s body trembled, and she turned her head abruptly.

    “Yu girl, you can get lost now! There’s no place for you to live here! Come out quickly, don’t wait for me to open the door myself!”

    The landlady?
    Why was she here? Logically, wasn’t it not time to pay the rent yet?

    Before she could think too much, the door was kicked open by the landlady. This door itself was already aging and should have been reported for repair long ago, but the landlady found it troublesome and never did. And with this kick, this door was definitely broken.

    The door slammed heavily onto the ground, making a loud noise. Yu Linna stared blankly at the aggressive woman. The uneaten instant noodles were still steaming.

    “Landlady…”

    “Out. Immediately.”

    “Landlady, the rent date isn’t here yet! I said I’ll pay back the money I owe you all at once!”

    She pleaded bitterly with the landlady to give her a chance, almost kneeling on the ground.

    “Cut the crap! I don’t need you to say these words anymore! Now get out immediately! I don’t welcome you!”

    The landlady showed no mercy, grabbing her hair and dragging her outside, forcefully throwing her out. Poor Yu Linna, small and weak, couldn’t resist at all. She tried to push and pull, but was completely no match for her.

    How could Yu Linna possibly know that the landlady did this because people from Orange River found her and gave her money?
    Otherwise, why would the landlady kick her out without even wanting the money she owed?

    This commotion was so loud that the surrounding neighbors were attracted. They opened their doors and saw Yu Linna desperately pulling at the landlady’s clothes corner, begging her not to kick her out. But the landlady showed no mercy, throwing out clothes piece by piece from her house, along with a few necessities. Finally, she threw out a yellowed exercise book with Yu Linna’s name written on it.

    “What’s wrong, Ma’am? Why so angry? The little girl is still young, why did you kick her out?”
    “Yeah, Ma’am, Yu girl is so pitiful. If you kick her out, she’ll have nowhere to live!”
    “Ma’am, please calm down. Yu girl has no parents. Don’t kick her out. At worst, we neighbors can pool the debt she owes and pay you back!”

    The neighbors saw the landlady’s appearance, knew things had escalated, and all spoke up. Putting other things aside, Yu Linna was always a good child in the neighbors’ eyes, obedient and sensible. Now kicking her out just like that, it didn’t make sense!

    However, the landlady didn’t listen at all. She stuffed the thrown-out things towards Yu Linna, then threw out her suitcase, stood in front of Yu Linna, looking down at her collapsed on the ground, her icy gaze almost capable of killing.

    “Listen up! Whoever stands up for Yu girl, get out with her! Whoever dares to take her in, get lost! This girl has challenged my limits time and time again! From today on, I don’t want to see her in this building ever again! I’ll kick her out every time I see her!”

    Yu Linna was stunned. Looking at the landlady’s face, she knew she was serious. There was no turning back.
    Why did it turn out like this…
    She silently shed tears, her appearance heartbreaking to see.
    She had lived here for several years. Now, she finally had to leave here too, and was kicked out.

    Orange River, oh Orange River, why must you treat me like this…
    Yu Linna just didn’t understand why she had to encounter such things. She just wanted to eat better, wear warmer clothes. Was that wrong too? Why treat her like this? What had she done wrong?

    Holding back tears, she silently picked up the clothes thrown on the ground, put them into the suitcase, packed the few necessities thrown out, and finally, the yellowed exercise book with the three characters “Yu Linna” written on it. This exercise book had been with her since childhood, the only thing that could confirm her name.

    The neighbors watched the girl’s actions, feeling heartbroken. She was still so young, parents not around, not yet old enough to step into society, yet kicked out the door like this. Wasn’t it too pitiful? Anyone with a conscience wouldn’t do this, right?

    Yu Linna wiped away her tears. She said nothing, nor was she willing to resist anything. She knew she had no right.
    Taking her suitcase, she left, left from here. From now on, she no longer belonged here.
    Although the neighbors wanted to say something, seeing the landlady’s eyes, they all chose to shut their mouths.

    The girl no longer resisted anything. Perhaps she had accepted her fate. Perhaps, she chose the wrong opponent from the very beginning. Making an enemy of Orange River was undoubtedly seeking death. Even Nangong Ying didn’t dare to confront their power; how could she possibly deal with them?

    In the unseen world, the ending seemed already destined.

    Perhaps Fang Jianing at school would notice that Yu Linna suddenly disappeared, but she didn’t take it seriously, thinking she took leave as usual. How could she know she wasn’t taking leave, but skipping class?


    A few days after that, Yu Linna dragged a suitcase, with little money, impossible to stay in a hotel. She wanted to go to the tutoring institution where she used to work, find her boss for help.
    But when she arrived at the tutoring institution, Zhou Xiaoqing’s words plunged her further into despair.

    “You’ve been fired. This is your wage.”

    “…Wh-why?”

    Her eyes were dull, her face filled with bewilderment. Her body froze there.
    She didn’t understand why she was treated like this.
    Even her last refuge was gone. This was the place she had worked the longest. Why did even her boss want to fire her? Why treat her like this?

    Zhou Xiaoqing looked at Yu Linna’s almost despairing expression, ultimately finding it hard to be ruthless. She silently added a few more red bills to the wages she gave her.

    “Linna, did you offend someone?”

    “…They came looking for you?”

    “Yes. Said you must be driven away, otherwise, they wouldn’t let us continue running the tutoring center. I don’t know who they are. Tell me, what exactly do they do? Why did they even bring people from the Bureau of Industry and Commerce?”

    So that was it. She completely understood.
    The hidden darkness here was even darker than she imagined. In the face of power, one could truly do whatever they wanted.
    She was just a pawn in their game.

    “I understand, Sister Qing. I’ve caused you trouble. I’ll leave now. I won’t cause you any trouble.”

    “Linna, where are you going?!”

    “Where I go has nothing to do with you. I don’t have a home anymore.”

    Dragging her suitcase, Yu Linna was like a dead person. Having experienced so much despair, she no longer held any hope.
    Now, just live one day at a time. Since death would come sooner or later, why not live a little happier?
    Thinking this, she smiled, but she wasn’t happy.
    Her figure disappeared from sight…

  • Shion’s Notes 79

    Chapter 79: You Lied to Me

    What were they like in the past? The memories were a bit blurry.

    She only knew their relationship used to be very good. How good? Someone bought an ice cream bar, and they could lick the same one together. And whenever the blonde girl had no money for food, the other person would always find suitable reasons to take her home for meals.

    And whenever she couldn’t find a new job and life became difficult, there would always be someone by her side, deliberately saying they didn’t want to go home these few days and wanted to eat her cooking, then go buy groceries themselves and cook at her place.

    It was also this person who always came out to protect her when someone troubled her, not letting anyone hurt her. When boys tried to bully her relying on their local advantage, this person ruthlessly beat them up.

    The person who protected her was named Nangong Ying. The person Yu Linna trusted most in the first half of her life.
    She believed so strongly that Nangong Ying would always protect her, never changing. She believed it so much.
    Even if the whole world betrayed her, Nangong Ying wouldn’t betray her. She once thought so.

    But…
    Now it seemed that wasn’t the case.

    When she left the company, she made several calls to Nangong Ying, but Nangong Ying never answered. Perhaps she was avoiding something. Nangong Ying had disappeared.

    The sky was gray today, seeming like it was about to rain. Walking on this road, Yu Linna lost her direction. She suddenly found that she seemed unable to distinguish which one was Nangong Ying. The Nangong Ying she knew and the Nangong Ying she was aware of seemed different.
    Why was this?

    She arrived at Nangong Ying’s doorstep, pressed the doorbell. Nangong Ying’s mother, Zhang Jing, opened the door. Seeing this blonde girl, she couldn’t help but smile.

    “Isn’t this Little Nana? It’s rare for you to come play at my house. Come in quickly.”

    Zhang Jing liked Yu Linna very much. She liked her from the first time her daughter brought this child home. This child was well-behaved, sensible, and very polite. Which family wouldn’t like her? Especially after learning about her background, she felt both pity and affection for her, even wanting to adopt her.
    But Yu Linna was such a sensible child; she knew she could never integrate into another family, so she preferred not to disturb their peace.

    “I’m not here to play. I want to find Nangong. Is she home?”

    “You mean Xiao Ying? She’s not here. She went out filming a long time ago. I haven’t heard from her recently either. Do you know where she went?”

    It seemed Zhang Jing also didn’t know Nangong Ying’s whereabouts. This further indicated that Nangong Ying losing contact was intentional. She was hiding from Yu Linna.

    Things probably became clear. Yu Linna thought about the indenture contract she signed. Nangong Ying probably played a role in pushing it. Think back to the beginning. If Nangong Ying hadn’t instigated it, would she have fallen into the chess game step by step and signed that contract? With her mindset of not daring to take risks at that time, she absolutely wouldn’t have dared to sign. But with Nangong Ying’s words, she still signed it.
    Nangong Ying said that as long as she became famous, she would have the chance to find her blood relatives in this world. She deeply believed this.

    When a person is lonely for a long time, they think about finding their bloodline. She had been alone since her previous life, and felt even more lonely in this life. After a long time, she always wanted to find her bloodline, at least to know where she came from.
    She didn’t expect to be recognized after finding her relatives. At least she wanted to know who she really was, where she came from, who gave her the mixed-race appearance.
    Just simply wanting to find her roots.
    Who could have thought that this simple wish would be used by someone, and by her best friend at that?
    Besides the best friend, who else could know the weakness deep in her heart?

    “Thank you, Auntie. I’m leaving.”

    “Little Nana, where are you going? Won’t you come in and sit for a while? Auntie has delicious cake!”

    “No, thank you for Auntie’s kindness. I have something to do. I’ll come again next time.”

    She chose to leave. This place couldn’t give her what she wanted.
    Perhaps, she would never come here again.

    When she learned she was used by Nangong Ying, her heart broke, completely shattered. She really couldn’t understand why Nangong Ying would do this. She knew Nangong Ying so well; she shouldn’t have done this.
    She couldn’t figure it out.


    She took the initiative to ask around and finally found out that Nangong Ying was currently filming on set. Looking at the time on her phone, it was around five o’clock now, still some time before work ended. She had time to go find her after she finished work.

    The girl started running, heading towards the set where Nangong Ying was. Nangong Ying’s crew had now moved to the outskirts of Guangnan City to film a scene. Today was the last day of their stay. Yu Linna called a motorcycle taxi to get there. The cold wind on the road whipped against her face, but no matter how cold the wind, it couldn’t compare to the coldness in her heart.

    She rushed to the set, but the staff wouldn’t let her in. She got anxious, showed her identity as an artist under Orange River, and her identity as Nangong Ying’s friend. Only after the staff checked her information did they let her in.

    At this time, Nangong Ying’s scenes had finished filming. Today’s shooting work was also over; the crew wrapped up. She was just thinking of going back to rest well when she received news from her agent:
    “Yu Linna came looking for you. She’s right outside the set.”

    !–

    The hand holding the towel to wipe sweat trembled slightly, her face also turning unpleasant. She hadn’t expected this day to come so quickly, completely unprepared. It just came.

    “Should we send her away?”

    “…Don’t send her away yet. I’ll go sit in the lounge for a while. Give her some money, politely ask her to leave.”

    She still couldn’t bring herself to be ruthless.
    Towards Yu Linna, she had feelings after all; she couldn’t just throw them away. No matter what, she was her friend, the friend she swore to protect for a lifetime.

    Nangong Ying escaped, hiding in the lounge, locking the door tightly. At this time, most of the staff in the crew had gone off duty, the actors had also finished work early and gone for dinner. Not many people were left in the crew. Therefore, a slightly louder voice could be heard.

    “No! I don’t want money! I want to see Nangong!”

    A girl’s roar came from the studio.
    The agent lady took out a stack of cash to dismiss her, but Yu Linna refused to accept it no matter what. She only wanted to see Nangong Ying, nothing else.

    “Miss, Miss Nangong has already finished work. She’s not here.”

    “I don’t believe it! Nangong, come out! Come out!!”

    She shouted hoarsely, calling her name, but the other person wouldn’t respond.
    Nangong Ying hid in the lounge, the door locked from the inside. She sat there, covering her ears, pretending not to hear.

    Yu Linna slapped away the agent lady’s hand, rushed outside. She rushed to the lounge door, looked at the tightly locked door, fluorescence flashing in her eyes.

    “Are you there, Nangong…”

    Nangong Ying didn’t dare to respond. She was afraid, afraid of being discovered by Yu Linna.
    She had already done something irreversible. She knew she would never be forgiven. She really didn’t have the face to see Yu Linna anymore.
    Having done such an excessive thing, yet still wanting forgiveness, how could such a thing be possible?
    She knew it; she could never get her forgiveness.

    “Nangong, answer me. Come out. Tell me, you’re inside…”

    Yu Linna’s voice was a bit hoarse, her vocal cords already trembling, faintly hearing her crying.
    Yu Linna was a crybaby, she knew it. No matter when she cried, she felt it was normal. But only this time, when she cried, Nangong Ying felt a suffocating pain.
    Her heart felt like it was being squeezed, the feeling of suffocation oppressing her. So uncomfortable, so painful.
    Only today did she realize how much she couldn’t bear to see her tears. Before, when she cried, she felt nothing, but only today, she felt heartache.

    Linna, don’t cry. When you cry, I feel bad too. I beg you, don’t cry…
    Nangong Ying clutched her head, tears also falling drop by drop.

    “Nangong, they said you tricked me into joining Orange River, said you used me. It’s ridiculous, right? How could such a thing happen? Nangong, you care about me the most, right? You wouldn’t do that kind of thing. You said you would protect me. Tell me, am I right…”

    She once said she would protect her. She always remembered how brilliant the smile was on that girl’s face.
    She regarded her as the most sincere friend, trusting her for a lifetime. But she didn’t deserve it.

    “Nangong, can you come out? I’ll listen to everything you say. As long as you say those are lies, I’ll believe you immediately.”

    This was already impossible.
    Nangong Ying silently cried, her heart feeling like it was being shredded. How could she be so selfish? How could she treat her like this?
    Yu Linna was her friend, the person she had the most feelings for. She even had feelings beyond friendship for her.
    How could she treat her like this?

    “Nangong…”

    As she spoke, Yu Linna’s voice weakened, becoming even hoarser. Perhaps she understood that no matter what she said, she couldn’t make Nangong Ying come out.
    In her heart, there was only despair.

    “Why did you lie to me, Nangong? Why did you lie to me? How could you do this to me…”

    Finally, Yu Linna spoke the words she least wanted to hear. At this moment, Nangong Ying’s heart shattered to the extreme, but she endured, not letting herself make a sound.

    “Nangong, you lied to me! How could you lie to me! You promised! You said if I became famous, I could find my relatives! You lied to me! I can’t possibly become famous! I can’t be a star! You lied to me! You’re too much! Why did you do this to me, waaaaaah!!!”

    Yu Linna cried loudly outside the door, tears covering her small face, her voice heartbreaking. She was already desperate, all that remained was collapse.
    She couldn’t believe that the person she trusted most had actually betrayed her.

    “Nangong, don’t leave me! Don’t sell me! I don’t want to be sold! I want you to protect me! I don’t want you to leave me! Wuwuwuwu…”

    She cried, shouted, and at the same time, broke the other’s heart.
    Yu Linna had suffered her whole life, gaining nothing. Wandering since childhood, never tasting a trace of warmth. Finally finding warmth from Nangong, yet it was ruthlessly cut off.

    Nangong Ying leaned against the door, silently shedding tears. Her heart also felt terrible, cut by a thousand knives. She would rather be the one injured than hear her crying.
    For her dream, she actually hurt the person she should cherish most. The person she should protect most was the one hurt the deepest.

    “Nangong, don’t leave me! Don’t leave me! I don’t want to be superior anymore! I don’t want to be a star anymore! I just want you! Can you come out…”

    She was like a small child, crying and shouting loudly, like a child who had lost its parents’ embrace.
    But no matter how she shouted, how she fussed, she would never see Nangong Ying’s figure. Finally, she understood. Nangong Ying wouldn’t come back. She had gone to a place far, far away. And that place, no matter how hard she tried, she could never reach that shore.

    “Wuwuwuwuwuwu…!”

    She wailed loudly, probably the most fiercely she had cried in this life.
    It was unknown how long she cried. The crying gradually faded. When the agent lady opened the lounge door again, she saw Nangong Ying curled up in the corner, hugging herself.
    Nangong Ying was crying secretly. Although she didn’t cry out loud, she had also cried herself into tears.

    They had finally reached the end…

  • Shion’s Notes 78

    Chapter 78: Star Dream

    The crew’s work became busy again. Staff members handled each step methodically, ensuring no errors occurred. The cinematographer focused the lights, ready. Under the director’s arrangement, the actors entered the set to prepare their scenes.

    Nangong Ying, the newcomer actress who had originally been kicked out of the crew, returned for some unknown reason, leaving the entire crew puzzled. But the entertainment industry itself was a deep pool; no one knew how deep it ran. Everyone was smart enough not to ask. The male lead, Liang Hui, was quite happy to learn that Nangong Ying had safely returned to the crew. He generously announced that after work tonight, he would treat everyone to Haidilao, causing the entire crew to boil with excitement.

    Nangong Ying just smiled faintly, saying nothing, seriously immersing herself in filming. In this movie, although her screen time wasn’t large, she was still the female lead, so she had to put in 100% effort.

    Under the careful guidance of the two directors, Nangong Ying’s acting skills improved. Although still at a newcomer level, her growth rate was very fast. The fact that she dared to compete with veteran actors on the same stage showed that her aptitude wasn’t bad.

    Moreover, her status was different now. Before, she was just an actress signed for one movie, an actress invited into the crew. But not now; she was already a member of the big company Orange River, an actress under their banner.

    Although she didn’t have much box office appeal, nor great fame, she was still the champion of the National Singing Competition. With such a title, it could be used for a good wave of publicity when the movie was about to be released.
    After all, the current young generation was still very keen on the topic of the National Singing Competition.

    “Wrap it up! Everyone worked hard. Come early tomorrow.”

    After a day, filming was finished. Nangong Ying got a chance to rest. It had been a long time since she experienced such intense filming. It felt quite fulfilling, but at this moment, she couldn’t feel happy at all.

    She declined Liang Hui’s kind invitation and went back alone with her bag. Li Yuexin had been waiting for her outside for a long time. These past two days, Li Yuexin had gotten used to picking her up every day. Their relationship warmed up quickly.

    “Xiao Ying, you know the movie our band did the soundtrack for Director Zhang, right? That movie seems to have been unbanned. The director can continue with post-production.”

    “Okay.”

    She knew about this matter, perhaps clearer than anyone else.
    But she wouldn’t say.

    “And you’ve also become an actress under Orange River. Things are unpredictable.”

    “Yes, that’s true.”

    “Tell me… is the movie being unbanned related to you agreeing to sign with Orange River?”

    She fell silent.
    Sure enough, she couldn’t escape Sister Yuexin’s eyes, Nangong Ying couldn’t help thinking.

    Yes, the reason the movie could be unbanned, and she could smoothly return to the crew, even becoming an actress under Orange River, was all related to her.
    It was also the matter she least wanted to bring up. If she had the chance to choose, she wouldn’t make this choice again, because this choice was truly too difficult.

    “I guessed it. But I didn’t expect you to be so straightforward. The previous you didn’t seem like the type willing to yield to others.”

    “That was before. Now I’ve thought it through. There are no unchanging people, only unchanging things.”

    Looking up, Nangong Ying said this, her eyes filled with sorrow.
    In a short period, she had become sentimental.

    Li Yuexin definitely couldn’t guess that Nangong Ying, in order to trade with Orange River, let Orange River give her back everything, and sign her as an actress, was because she sent Yu Linna in as her scapegoat. The person who should have been subjected to the unspoken rules was originally her, Nangong Ying.
    It was she who betrayed her friend, her selfishness betrayed her. She knew she was a bastard.
    But she couldn’t retreat. She could only walk on. Even if it was wrong, she could only walk on. Because this was the only path she could take.

    “Sister Yuexin, tell me, was choosing to be an actress the right decision?”

    Her eyes held a hint of confusion, looking ahead, already starting to blur.
    Back then, for her ideals, she gave up being an athlete, gave up the path her father arranged for her. Now she chose to be an actress, a star. But how could the entertainment industry be as simple as she imagined? Without certain rules, how could one survive in this circle?
    When she discovered the gap between ideals and reality, she felt defeated. But one thing was obvious: she didn’t want to give up her current ideal. She still wanted to be a star, wanted her fame to be greater, let the entire mainland know her name. Even surpass her father.

    “There’s no good or bad. You’ve already chosen this path, so you have to walk down it. Because people have to be responsible for their own choices.”

    Didn’t Li Yuexin come through the same way back then? Rolling and crawling in this circle, finally achieving her career, becoming popular. It wasn’t that she didn’t know the rules of this circle, just that she also couldn’t let go of that ideal.
    But if she knew that everything Nangong Ying possessed now was obtained by betraying a friend, what would she think…

    “Sister Yuexin, I argued with my friend.”

    “Is it that friend of yours named Yu Linna? Then you really need to talk to her properly. Aren’t you friends? If you talk properly, she will definitely understand.”

    “No, it’s impossible now. We can never reconcile again.”

    “How can you say that, Xiao Ying? This isn’t like you.”

    “If possible, I also wish this wasn’t true.”

    Nangong Ying knew clearly what she was doing, knew what she had done, but she couldn’t stop it.
    She had let Yu Linna down. She had let down that trust.
    She was a complete jerk.
    The person she swore to protect became the one she hurt the most.


    What was Yu Linna doing now?

    At this moment, she knew what kind of place she had come to. The cruelest rules of the game were laid before her, yet she couldn’t change them. Wanting to earn 3 million for Orange River in a short time, besides acting, she couldn’t think of a better way. But she couldn’t get roles.
    So, besides this rule, she really couldn’t think of what else to do.

    And the breach of contract penalty was 80 million. What kind of joke was that? She couldn’t earn that much in her entire life. How could she pay it back? Fate was playing a joke on her. Since childhood, she had been alone, struggling to survive until now. Now, finally finding a way to live a good life, yet having to pay such a painful price.
    She really didn’t want to do this.

    Sniffle…

    She stayed alone in the toilet crying, secretly crying. Covering her face, utterly helpless.
    If she had known this place was a wolf’s den, she wouldn’t have come in no matter what. Just because she believed Nangong Ying, believed her words that becoming famous could help find her relatives in this world, she entered without hesitation.
    But only after entering did she discover that everything was her being too naive.
    How could there be such good things?
    All this was just a game for the rich, yet she, a poor person, took it seriously.

    She wiped away her tears. Before things got bigger, she decided to find Nangong Ying. Only by finding Nangong Ying could the problem be solved. Otherwise, she would really be done for here.

    She put on a black hoodie, walked out of the company gate alone, looked at this building. Clearly, this was the Orange River Company that people envied and pursued, the company many actors longed to enter, the leader of the entire film industry, the conscientious company in the eyes of the audience. But, it was Yu Linna’s nightmare…
    She wouldn’t leave herself here. She swore she must escape Orange River.
    But how to escape? This was another problem…
    Because besides making money, she really couldn’t think of anything else.
    Paying the penalty was also unrealistic.


    Beep beep beep—

    On the other side, Ye Zhiyun got busy. After the previously invested movie made money, her assets increased instantly. Now with more funds on hand, she naturally wanted to make larger investments, preferably earning even more.

    “Hello, Director Xu, when are you free? Let’s have a meal sometime. I have a project I want to discuss with you.”
    “Hello, Boss Huo, it’s me, Ye Zhiyun. Is it convenient for you? I want to discuss something with you.”

    Miss Ye was a very busy person, with many social engagements to attend. Although the age of a high school student, she had already learned how to deal with bosses.

    The romance movie directed by Murong Yan before had good word-of-mouth during its release. A movie with little early promotion broke into the top five of the monthly box office charts amidst the siege of many blockbusters, ultimately grossing 320 million. Ye Zhiyun received her share, and her liquid assets also increased.

    And next, she had new plans. One was to invest in a major production, definitely needing box office guarantee, preferably Orange River’s. Additionally, she wanted to invest in an animated movie. As a veteran anime fan, she always wanted to invest in an animated movie but lacked the opportunity. Now she wanted to find this opportunity.

    “Miss, the movie ‘Storm Seal’ has been unbanned. It’s said that people from Orange River gave Nangong Ying a chance, letting her sign under their banner. Because of this relationship, this movie was unbanned. Meaning, the money Miss invested still has a chance to yield returns.”

    “It’s just a pity we lost the chance to extort Orange River.”

    She said coldly.
    What tricks were these bastards at Orange River playing? To actually pull this move? Was the conflict between Nangong Ying and Orange River just an act?

    “Moreover, according to reliable sources, ‘Storm Seal’, in order to attract audiences upon release, has been renamed ‘Storm Seal Chronicle’. Probably considering the name wasn’t attractive enough.”

    “Changing the name is fine too. It sounds a bit like a fantasy novel. Just don’t know what the reaction of the audience watching the movie will be when they realize they’re watching a martial arts film.”

    Ye Zhiyun didn’t forget to roast the movie’s name. Although roasting it as a martial arts film, it actually had some relation to fantasy. After all, there were special effects, and when the female lead died and was frozen in the extreme cold land at the end, there would also be extensive special effects.
    But Ye Zhiyun only hoped this movie could make money. After all, she was a businesswoman; what she wanted was still money.

    “Miss, we should set off.”

    “Okay, getting busy again. Looks like I have to take leave for tomorrow’s quiz. The homeroom teacher probably wants to strangle me. Let’s go, let’s go to work.”

    Miss Ye started her busy days again. In the days of making money, she slowly forgot the existence of a certain person.

  • Shion’s Notes 77

    Chapter 77: Why…

    She trusted her so much, but had the other party ever responded to her expectations?
    Perhaps in the past, yes, but that was also a long time ago.

    Yu Linna stood at the entrance of the convenience store where she often worked, looking at the customers coming and going inside, and the part-time girl working at the cash register. She couldn’t help but look at the wallet in her hand and sighed deeply. Just now, she had been fired.

    Before this, Yu Linna had always worked part-time to earn money, juggling several jobs. But since signing with Orange River and becoming an artist, her jobs were lost one after another. Now, besides the assistant teacher position at the tutoring center, all other jobs were gone.

    Although she now earned several hundred yuan for each commercial she filmed, sometimes she still thought, life is unpredictable. She thought she could keep these jobs, but ultimately, for her ideals, she had to abandon them.

    Just as she said, she believed Nangong Ying; she still chose to stay. Even though that incident happened, thinking that this job could bring her more opportunities, she still chose to stay. For no other reason than wanting to go to the pinnacle of the world with Nangong Ying.

    She would become a star; she believed she could do it. Because when she was very young, the adults in the foster families often told children that you reap what you sow. She believed that all the effort she put in, everything she gave up, was for the future.


    The girl walked to the tutoring institution opened by Zhou Xiaoqing. Today happened to be a workday. Children had already arrived here to play. And the other teachers also arrived one after another. When Yu Linna saw Zhou Xiaoqing, her steps felt slightly heavy, but she still stepped out eventually.

    “Sister Qing, I want to ask for leave.”

    “You’re asking for leave again? You’ve asked for too much this month, almost half the time you haven’t come to work.”

    “Sorry, I have something to do and temporarily can’t work here.”

    “If you continue like this, we can only hire a new assistant teacher.”

    “I know, I’m sorry. I will resolve my matters as soon as possible.”

    Although she said that, Yu Linna knew that she probably wouldn’t be able to keep this job for long either. Being fired was probably a matter of time. She just hoped that day would come a little later.

    Standing at the entrance of the tutoring institution, looking at the group of children, she was also a part of this place. Although she wasn’t an official teacher, she had belonged here after all. Perhaps soon, she would no longer belong here.

    She was Yu Linna, actress Yu Linna, a person destined to reach the peak.
    Wanting to go higher and farther required effort. As for when she could reach that place, that wasn’t something she could control.

    Sometimes, inadvertently, she would look at the advertising screens on the street, often seeing the figures of TV stars. She sometimes wondered, how wonderful it would be if she could also become a part of the TV screen. But she knew, currently, it was impossible.

    Nangong Ying, the goal she strived to pursue. In the future, she would definitely go farther and farther, to places she could never reach. She knew she might never surpass her in her lifetime, but at least, she wanted to gain people’s attention, at least let her name be known.
    Nangong said she wanted to go to higher and farther places, hoping she could go with her.
    Nangong wouldn’t lie.
    She always firmly believed this.


    Returning to the gate of Orange River Company, she had to shoot commercials for this company again. This was already her daily work routine. Although she couldn’t get the opportunity to film movies, she would try to accumulate experience.

    “Miss Yu, let’s talk about something.”

    As soon as she entered the office building, Yu Tianchen walked over, still smiling, but it inexplicably made people feel afraid.

    “What is it, Mr. Yu?”

    “Let’s talk in the office.”

    “No, no, no… let’s talk here.”

    Hearing “office,” she immediately panicked. With the previous lesson, she would never follow a strange man into an office, no matter what. And Yu Tianchen also saw her vigilance, naturally wouldn’t force it. He asked Yu Linna to go to the hall on the second floor.

    In the second-floor hall, Yu Tianchen asked her to sit down, then pushed his glasses, preparing his words. Yu Linna saw his manner, sensed something was wrong. She had a feeling of being targeted.

    “Last time you met the leader, it seems you left the leader dissatisfied. This shouldn’t have happened.”

    “!–”

    She hadn’t expected it to turn out like this.
    Yu Tianchen specifically came to talk to her about this matter.
    Meaning, that incident last time was intentional? But Nangong said they wouldn’t do anything to her. Nangong wouldn’t lie to her.

    “Sorry, I was too scared, so I…”

    “It’s understandable that you would think this way. Who doesn’t have a first time? This is very normal.”

    “…What, what did you say?”

    She seemed to have heard some incredible words from his mouth.
    What did he mean by this?

    “Didn’t the leader tell you? Forget it, don’t mind it. The leader will call you again next time. Remember to be more sensible this time. If you work a little harder, maybe you can get a supporting role in a movie.”

    Yu Linna, a pure newcomer, wanting to act in movies was easier said than done. She had no acting skills, no strength, not even a decent background. Not even a professional certificate, just an ordinary high school student. To put it bluntly, why would a director use her to film a movie? What qualifications did she have to get a role?
    This was the fact.

    If she wanted to get a role, besides pleasing others, exchanging her own things, what other way was there? Relying solely on strength was already impossible.

    Yu Linna was naive, but it didn’t mean she was stupid. How could she not guess the meaning behind Yu Tianchen’s words?

    “Mr. Yu, tell me, if I want to get a role, do I have to… do that kind of thing?”

    She wasn’t unaware of the news, wasn’t unaware of what happened in the entertainment industry. But she hadn’t thought deeply about it, thinking it was just one-sided talk.
    But how deep the water in this circle was, one only knew after entering.

    “Female stars are different from male stars. Female stars have the biggest advantage, which is being able to please others. I’ve already thought about it. Next, let you fight for a role. As long as you perform well after getting the role, you might gain fame. This is an opportunity, you know.”

    These words he spoke sounded like the voice of hell to Yu Linna.
    Wanting resources, wanting roles, actually required paying so much? What kind of logic was this… It shouldn’t be like this.
    Weren’t they the leaders of the film industry? Why would they do this kind of thing?
    She couldn’t believe this was real.

    “Besides this path, do I have no other choice?”

    “You have nothing, not even a university diploma. What do you have to compete with others? Besides begging others, what else can you do? We are responsible for making you famous, so you have to listen to us.”

    “No… I don’t want to…”

    “You can refuse, but this is your only chance to get a role.”

    “No! I’d rather not have the role than debase myself like this!”

    She clutched her head and shouted painfully.
    This sentence wasn’t just said for others to hear, but also for herself.
    She would never sell herself cheap, no matter what, because her dignity belonged to herself.
    She didn’t belong to anyone.

    Yu Tianchen smiled. He was still the gentle-looking Yu Tianchen, but his eyes had changed, becoming sharper, like an old fox.
    This was his true face.

    Nangong Ying was like this before too, thinking herself invincible, yet stumbled before Orange River. When about to be subjected to the unspoken rules, didn’t she choose to send her friend in to replace her? In the face of true power, all resistance is futile.

    “Miss Yu, I am your agent. You must obey the contract’s arrangements.”

    “I won’t!”

    “It’s clearly written in the contract, you must work for our company, you must earn a net profit of three million for our company. Right now, you’ve only earned 50,000 for us, not even a fraction. Just shooting commercials won’t make money. Only by acting in movies, getting paid, earning box office, only then will you have value.”

    The cruel entertainment industry, box office is everything. The highest value proving an actor is the box office. This is fact.

    “Or perhaps, you want to breach the contract? If you terminate the contract, the penalty is eighty million.”

    “No, no, no…!”

    She finally knew what kind of place she had come to.
    This wasn’t a place to chase dreams, nor a platform to realize dreams. This was a wolf’s den, filled with power and oppression, where even the law couldn’t reach. Here, they were everything.
    Yu Linna was just a small newcomer. How could she possibly escape? From the moment she was signed, she already belonged here; she couldn’t leave.

    She almost screamed like mad. She really couldn’t believe this place was so chaotic. She once thought this was heaven, but only after entering did she realize it was hell. The contrast was too great for her to accept immediately.

    “How could you do this to me? It wasn’t like this when you first said it! You lied to me!”

    “I didn’t lie to you. You were the one who signed the name, you were the one who made the decision. I never forced you. Isn’t that right, Miss Yu?”

    He smiled, smiled so beautifully, but this smile looked so terrifying to Yu Linna.
    Everything was firmly controlled by Orange River. She was just a pawn, unable to stir any waves at all.

    So, everything Nangong Ying said, was it all fake?
    She couldn’t help but start doubting.

    “I want to find Nangong! Where is Nangong?!” Panicked, she grasped at straws.

    “Nangong Ying is a member of our company. She has no right to interfere in your affairs. I am directly responsible for you.”

    “No, no, Nangong said she wouldn’t lie to me! She said it wasn’t true, she said I was overthinking it, she clearly said it!”

    She cried, unsure why she was crying. Perhaps it was sadness. But more likely, it was heartbreak.

    “Nangong Ying should be back on set working now. She’s the number one female lead. As a friend, you should be proud of her.”

    Since signing, Nangong Ying returned to her original crew to work. The matter of being kicked out before was written off. She reshot the scenes she hadn’t finished. She was still the female lead, still Nangong Ying, nothing changed. What changed was only her expression.

    She would probably never know how Nangong Ying made this decision.

  • Shion’s Notes 76

    Chapter 76: Trust

    The girl in her arms trembled, seemingly frightened by something, like a small animal. Having never seen her like this, Fang Jianing sensed something was wrong. What could make Yu Linna become like this? If it wasn’t something that could deeply affect her, it absolutely couldn’t make her like this.

    Yu Linna was a strong girl. Although a bit cheeky, she would never infringe on others’ rights. Coming from a poor family, she had always been ambitious, not only studying well but also working part-time outside to support her family. Privately, she had never been seen in such a weak state. In memory, besides that time she secretly cried in the park, she seemed never to have shown such an expression. But the current Yu Linna was much more fragile than when she secretly cried last time. At this moment, she was like a frightened rabbit, her face frighteningly pale.

    “There, there, Linna, don’t be afraid. What happened? Can you tell me?”

    “No, no, no…”

    She shook her head desperately, like a rattle drum.

    “Alright then, calm down first, okay? No one will hurt you. Be good.”

    “Okay…”

    The girl hugged her, refusing to let go, afraid of being targeted again when she let go.
    What she experienced earlier made her truly feel the powerlessness of being a girl. She was really just a hair’s breadth away from falling into the tiger’s mouth. If she hadn’t run fast, she probably would have really died there.

    As a girl, having lived as a girl for seventeen years, this was the first time she experienced the powerlessness of being a girl. Once a girl is targeted, it’s very difficult to shake off the hunter, unless this prey is worthless. But as long as it’s prey, it’s definitely valuable.

    In the entertainment industry, girls are very unsafe, especially in a place like Orange River. Yu Linna was lucky; at least she could still escape. If it were someone else, it’s unknown if they would have had the chance to come out.

    She never knew the entertainment industry was such a terrifying place. The world always said the entertainment industry was a glamorous stage, a broad road to brightness. But this broad road seemed not as beautiful as people imagined.
    Compared to the vibrant campus life, the entertainment industry was far too complex; it was a society in itself.
    Yu Linna didn’t dare to think ahead. If she were slightly careless, what would she become?

    Fang Jianing comforted her for a long time before Yu Linna slowly calmed down. But her mood still hadn’t improved. Fang Jianing took her to eat, but she had no appetite.

    She kept thinking, what kind of place had she gone to? Why did the starlit path everyone talked about turn out like this? A place so many people desperately wanted to go, why was it so unbearable? Nangong Ying, why did she bring her here?
    She had too many questions.


    To figure this out, she went to find Nangong Ying that evening. Learning that Nangong Ying had returned to Guangnan City, she immediately set off to find her. Fang Jianing wanted to stop her because she was worried about Yu Linna. After all, her behavior today was too abnormal; she really couldn’t rest assured letting her go out alone.

    Yu Linna left forcefully, ignoring the advice. She only had one thought: find Nangong Ying and ask clearly.

    The girl took a taxi to find her. This was an extravagant act for Yu Linna, who was used to taking the bus, but she couldn’t care less at this moment. Nangong Ying now had an independent office in Orange River’s branch company, specially given to her by Orange River as a gift for signing her. Nangong Ying had also officially signed the contract not long ago; she had rightfully become an artist under the Orange River banner.

    Nangong Ying agreed to film four movies for Orange River, but excluding profit sharing. The salary for each movie was around 3.9 million, not including guest appearances.

    But for this contract, Nangong Ying paid a painful price. To allow her only completed movie to be released smoothly, to allow her to continue the movie she hadn’t finished filming, she chose to endure. She didn’t want to be restricted by multiple movie contracts, but she had to accept these domineering contracts.
    Simply because she was a newcomer, she could only endure. Now Orange River was the biggest; everything was decided by them. She couldn’t resist at all. They even wanted to use the unspoken rules on her. For her future development, she chose to compromise, and at the same time, made the most painful decision.
    That was to personally send Yu Linna into this circle.

    Although Yu Linna lacked ability, acting skills, and value, her advantage was having a good appearance, which was precisely why Orange River took a fancy to her. She might not become a big star, but she was the most suitable toy in the eyes of the higher-ups.


    “Nangong.”

    The office door was knocked, then opened. The blonde girl walked in, led by the woman in the suit. Nangong Ying knew why she came; she had long prepared for this day.
    Sooner or later, it had to be experienced.

    Nangong Ying today wore high-end brands, a pair of jeans highlighting the lines of her legs. Because she had exercised, her muscle lines were beautiful, and her tall stature made her conspicuous. Her blue hair was tied into a ponytail, giving off a capable and experienced look. If it weren’t for her identity as an actress, some might think she was a fitness trainer.

    Yu Linna today wore a plain short-sleeved shirt and trousers, a pair of twenty-yuan flat shoes, utterly plain, clearly incomparable to Nangong Ying. Truly a waste of a beautiful face.

    But Nangong Ying had seen it countless times and was long used to it. She had already prepared good tea, let Yu Linna sit down, then asked her agent to go out first and close the door.

    “Linna, sit down. This place has been assigned to me as an office. Just treat it as my home.”

    Yu Linna walked to the opposite sofa, looking at the steaming black tea. The fresh tea aroma couldn’t soothe the questions in her heart. On that calm face, there seemed to be no panic. Yu Linna thought, perhaps she really didn’t know what happened.
    But how could she have thought that Nangong Ying actually understood everything, just learned to hide it?
    This girl, who used to be so upright, after experiencing a series of lessons, also learned to hide, learned shrewdness.

    “Nangong, I want to know, why did you bring me into the entertainment industry?”

    “I want to help you, it’s that simple. I always felt you have the aptitude. Look, you’re more outstanding than others. I think you should be in this circle.”

    She spoke calmly, reasonably, finding no place to refute.
    And these excuses, she had prepared long ago.
    She knew Yu Linna wouldn’t easily doubt her; she would definitely believe her.

    “Really?”

    When Yu Linna expressed doubt, she knew she already controlled the chessboard.

    “Yes, I’ve always thought so. Linna, haven’t I told you? I want to go to higher and farther places. But if you are by my side, I should be very happy. Nothing is happier than growing together with a friend by your side.”

    These words, she wasn’t lying.
    At least, she had thought so before.

    Yu Linna was her friend, always would be. This point wouldn’t change. She firmly believed that Yu Linna was her lifelong friend. It was just… she couldn’t protect her forever.

    “But, Nangong… I was almost… I won’t say it, I can’t say it anymore.”

    Mentioning that incident, Yu Linna hugged her trembling body. She still had lingering fear about that matter. A girl in the prime of her youth, encountering such a thing, how many wouldn’t be afraid?

    Nangong Ying knew what happened. How could she possibly not know? But what could she do? Could she change it? Standing before them was Orange River, the leader of the film industry. She was just a small newcomer actress. What could she change?

    “Linna, calm down. Things aren’t as bad as you think. That leader, he’s one of Orange River’s shareholders, a member of the board of directors. He couldn’t possibly do that kind of thing to you. He also has a family. Don’t overthink it.”

    “But…!”

    “Linna, do you trust me?”

    When Nangong Ying said this sentence, Yu Linna obediently closed her mouth. Looking at her sincere face, she brewed her thoughts for a moment, then slowly uttered the most sincere and also the most foolish sentence of her life:

    “You are the person I trust most in this world.”

    Yes, she trusted Nangong Ying. She would always trust Nangong Ying.
    Why?
    Simply because three years ago, when the bullying senior wanted to cut her hair, Nangong Ying stood out. From then on, she always remembered that summer afternoon, the figure of the blue-haired girl.
    In this world, few people had been so good to her, but she remembered all those who were good to her. Therefore, she could distrust anyone, but Nangong Ying, she would always believe.

    “Is that so…”

    Nangong Ying smiled, a very happy smile. She was so happy to receive such trust from Yu Linna. To have such a friend in life, what more could one ask for?

    “Since you trust me, then don’t think wildly. Be good. I’ve already joined this company. In the future, we’ll be actors in the same company. I will take you to farther places. I promise, I will let you live a good life.”

    She reached out, patted her head, revealing a gentle smile. Nangong Ying rarely smiled at others like this. Yu Linna was special; only she could receive such treatment.

    “Well, okay…”

    Although many questions lingered in her heart, Yu Linna ultimately chose to believe. Society was so treacherous. She chose to be sincere to her friend. Even if others laugh at me for going out without a weapon, I still want to face everyone with a smile.
    Sincere friendship always exists.
    She had always thought so.


    Sending Yu Linna away, the moment the door closed, her tears fell drop by drop onto the floor. She had been holding back just now, but after Yu Linna left, she couldn’t hold back anymore. She stood by the door, locked it, lowered her head, tears rolling down just like that.

    “I’m sorry, Linna…”

    Nangong Ying was a liar. She didn’t deserve such trust from her.
    She knew it. She knew this was wrong, but she still chose this path, simply because in her heart, dreams were more important than friendship.

    The place she wanted to go was too far; she couldn’t take her along. She raised her head, tears blurring her vision, also blurring the firmest shield in her heart. Behind that shield was the existence named Yu Linna.

  • Shion’s Notes 75

    Chapter 75: Palpitations

    Fang Jianing was playing games while dealing with the bullet comments. Then, unexpectedly, she killed a noob, whistled, and with just a few more people, she could achieve a perfect chicken dinner.

    And her mood recently was quite good. She performed exceptionally well on the last quiz, ranking in the top ten, a rank she had never achieved before. If she performed well, she could get into a good university in the future. Once she got into university, her parents should agree to let her show her face on live streams. She secretly really wanted to show her face on live streams. After all, beautiful girls all want to show their pretty faces to others. It was just a pity that Fang Jianing had relied on talent to make a living since her debut.

    “Little Angel, what do you do in real life? You seem very young?”
    “Yeah, we never hear you mention work matters. You don’t seem like an office white-collar worker.”
    “Could Little Angel be a high school girl (smirk)?”

    Fang Jianing looked at these bullet comments and couldn’t help but smile wryly.
    How should she put it? Some bullet comments unintentionally guessed the truth. She really was an active female high school student. As a female high school student, actually live-streaming online, her school teachers would probably be very angry if they knew. After all, those teachers were very conservative.

    “What I am isn’t really important. What’s important is that I love you all very much!”

    “Wow, touched… Little Angel, I declare my love for you!”
    “Marry me, Little Angel!”
    “Agreed!”
    “No, marry me!”
    “Seconded!”
    “Although I’m also a girl, I still have to say, Little Angel, marry me!”

    The bullet comments in the live broadcast room instantly became lively. This was exactly what Fang Jianing wanted to see. As a streamer, who wouldn’t want their popularity to be higher?
    Moreover, being able to support herself with this was also a skill. Her parents wouldn’t oppose her continuing to increase her popularity. As long as she did well in this industry, she could keep going.


    And what about Yu Linna?
    Her situation, relatively speaking, wasn’t so lucky.
    Since signing with Orange River and becoming an artist under their banner, her life trajectory began to change. It was just that she didn’t know which direction she would develop in.

    Although she filmed several commercials under their name, that was all. The other party didn’t really intend to entrust her with heavy responsibilities. They just let Yu Linna do some insignificant tasks. Obviously, their focus wasn’t here. After all, Yu Linna was 100% a newcomer, and her acting skills weren’t good enough. It was impossible to let her act in movies.

    “Miss Yu, you’ve been performing very well recently, but it’s still too early for you to participate in movies. Wait a little longer.”

    Every time Yu Linna asked, Yu Tianchen, her nominal agent, always answered her this way.

    “But I want to start filming as soon as possible.”

    She had waited a bit long. She felt increasingly uneasy, always feeling restless if she didn’t do something.

    “That day will come, but not now. Miss Yu, you still have many things to learn. Before you can stand on your own, we can’t let you take on roles.”

    Yu Linna’s strength wasn’t enough; she couldn’t carry a film. Even letting her play a supporting role, her strength wasn’t enough. Moreover, letting her act in a film required calculating the salary, which was written in the contract, not just giving a wage like for shooting commercials.
    Besides, Yu Linna’s value wasn’t high enough. Letting her act in movies was completely unrealistic. She wasn’t Nangong Ying.

    Yu Tianchen sat in the office, talking to Yu Linna on the phone, still wearing a kind smile, but what he was thinking inside was unknown. He was actually very experienced in dealing with such children. How many ignorant little girls wanted to enter here? How many little girls wanted to enter the fiercely competitive entertainment industry? But how many female stars could truly stand out?

    He knew that Yu Linna was just an add-on for them to sign Nangong Ying. Actually, they didn’t want Yu Linna, but Nangong Ying. It was just that Nangong Ying was a bit unappreciative, so they used a little trick, letting her proactively send Yu Linna in, and then they had the chance to seek out Nangong Ying again.

    And Nangong Ying, after tasting bitterness, finally became much more obedient. She had already agreed to sign with Orange River, but the signing time was set for later. It was naturally a good thing that she was so obedient. Thinking back to her initial self-important appearance, her edges were probably smoothed out by now.

    However, Yu Linna’s role wasn’t entirely useless.
    After all, she was Nangong Ying’s “substitute.”

    “Miss Yu, how about this? Come to the office this afternoon. A high-level leader wants to see you.”

    “Okay, I’ll be there on time. What time?”

    Naive her still didn’t know what kind of place she had entered. A sheep entering a wolf’s den, one careless step, and it would be an abyss.
    Unfortunately, she was still a novice now, completely ignorant of society’s rules.


    In the afternoon, Yu Linna arrived on time. The high-level leader’s office was on the twelfth floor. The winding corridor stretched on. Yu Linna walked to door 1209, stood before it, feeling a little nervous. It was her first time meeting a leader, and she was personally summoned. She wasn’t dressed formally; would she leave a bad impression? What if her performance wasn’t good later?

    With a mind full of worries, Yu Linna still knocked on the door. When the voice “Come in” came from the other side, Yu Linna opened the door and entered.

    Sitting behind the desk was a man in a suit, over forty, already overweight, his face stern. His broad shoulders gave an air of authority. He seemed like a man of few words; she hadn’t seen him smile since entering.

    So this is Yu Linna? the man thought inwardly.
    Although not as well-developed as Nangong Ying, she’s still quite decent. And mixed-race too, just thinking about it is exciting.

    “You must be Yu Linna. I’ve heard from Tianchen. You’re good friends with Nangong Ying.”
    “Hello, Leader. Thank you very much for taking the time to see me amidst your busy schedule. I will work hard for the company’s future!”

    The somewhat nervous Yu Linna bowed repeatedly. This little sheep-like personality greatly satisfied the leader.

    “My surname is Chen, Chen Liquan. Just call me Uncle Chen.”

    “I wouldn’t dare, I wouldn’t dare! How could I? I should still call you Leader Chen!”

    Hehe, this little sheep is really interesting.
    Chen Liquan was very satisfied with this girl’s performance. This girl’s biggest flaw was her lack of shrewdness, not being good at scheming. But these flaws all became advantages here. He wanted exactly this kind of pure, untainted girl. This way, manipulating her would also be convenient.

    If it were someone like Nangong Ying, he wouldn’t have an easy time. Although she was a newcomer with no background, she was, after all, the biological daughter of the famous national-level athlete Nangong Zhuo. Even though he didn’t belong to the entertainment industry, if he knew his precious daughter was treated like this, Orange River wouldn’t be able to settle things peacefully either.
    Yu Linna was different. She was an orphan since childhood, completely without background. This made her highly manipulable.

    “Xiao Yu, come here.”

    “What is it, Leader?”

    “Just come here.”

    Yu girl walked towards him, getting closer and closer. Chen Liquan smiled more and more brightly. He seemed to see an angel beckoning to him.
    Yu Linna, what a beautiful name. The person who gave this name surely didn’t expect that the child given this name would now be trampled and crushed.

    Chen Liquan stretched out his broad hand and placed it on Yu Linna’s head. The hair on Yu Linna’s head was soft and comfortable, feeling good to the touch. This was much better than the old hag at home. Although a bit small, it wasn’t bad, just right to try.

    “Leader Chen?”

    Yu Linna didn’t know what was happening, but instinctively sensed danger. Her body shrank back slightly.

    Chen Liquan’s other hand rested on her shoulder, his body leaning forward, his breath spraying on her body. A carnal aura spread. The most primitive human emotions were aroused.

    “Xiao Yu, do you want to act in movies? Want to get a role, then become famous overnight?”

    “I…”

    “Come, tell me your true wish. I will help you realize it. But humans making deals with the devil must pay a price. You must be prepared.”

    Saying this, the man’s face was filled with smiles, but this smile was terrifying.

    Yu Linna’s heart tightened. Fear instinctively surged through her body. Her brows furrowed tightly, her body began to tremble.
    Wrong, wrong…
    This isn’t what she wanted!
    This is definitely strange!
    She seemed to understand that she had entered a trap.

    Yu Linna abruptly broke free, shaking off the large hand, taking several steps back, her face deathly pale. But she knew she shouldn’t stay long. Looking at the confusion on Chen Liquan’s face, she felt as if she had seen a devil.

    “I… I’m sorry, Leader. I have something else to do. I’ll leave first!”

    Yu Linna gave him no time to react. She quickly opened the back door and ran out, looking like she had seen a ghost. Even Chen Liquan didn’t expect her to be so decisive. He thought this naive child would remain oblivious.

    But this also made him quite unhappy. He thought it would go smoothly, who knew such a change would occur. This little sheep’s alertness completely exceeded his imagination. Although she wasn’t smart enough, she instinctively sensed the arrival of danger. This kind was scary.

    “Hmph, Yu Linna.”

    Forget it. Anyway, he wasn’t short of women. He had plenty of opportunities. If not this time, then next time. There would always be a successful time.
    Few could enter Orange River’s eyes. Even fewer could conquer people with strength. As long as he was willing, he could recruit people anytime.
    Their Orange River was the leader of the film industry.


    Yu Linna ran out of the office, rushed out of the office building, gasping for breath, her face deathly pale. She really couldn’t believe that what she least wanted to encounter almost happened just now.

    She made a phone call, unsure how she remained calm. She randomly said a few words to the person on the other end. The person on the other end didn’t understand what she was talking about, just indicated they would come over.

    Ten minutes later, in the park, a girl walked in. When she saw the blonde girl sitting on the bench, constantly trembling, she knew something must have happened to this child.

    “What’s wrong, Linna? Did something happen?”

    When she walked over, Yu Linna didn’t care about anything, just went forward and hugged her, refusing to let go. As if only this way could she feel a trace of security. Touching her shoulder, she could feel her trembling.

    “Linna, what’s wrong? You can tell me if something happened…”

    “Don’t ask me, Jianing. Let me hug you for a while, please…”

    “Okay.”

    Fang Jianing patted her head, letting her lean against her chest. Although she didn’t know what happened, she felt this was what she should do now.

  • Shion’s Notes 74

    Chapter 74: Isn’t This a Stalker?

    Entering Orange River, things weren’t actually as good as imagined; everything was just mediocre. Under Orange River’s arrangement, she filmed several commercials. Although most of the money went into others’ pockets, for Yu Linna, she at least got nearly a thousand yuan, which was her living standard for a month.

    Although it was different from what she imagined, she gradually felt her wallet bulging, which was also a good thing. She believed that as long as she kept working hard, she could realize her ideals.

    One day, she would live a life where she could eat her fill and wear new clothes. When she became capable, she could make a name for herself worldwide and find her relatives in this world. This way, her wish could be fulfilled.

    Her thoughts were very simple: just to follow Nangong Ying’s footsteps, not asking to be as outstanding as Nangong Ying, but hoping to be known by the world like Nangong Ying.

    Nangong Ying was so outstanding. A martial arts champion since childhood, the youngest ever national singing competition champion, and starring in a major movie as a newcomer. With so many halos added to her, it was hard not to attract attention. She had always been the object of Yu Linna’s envy. She also wanted to be as eye-catching as Nangong Ying.
    If only she could be like her, how wonderful that would be.

    “Miss Yu, prepare for the next job. We’re going to the seaside.”

    “Oh, okay.”

    Now Yu Linna was tightly bound by Orange River’s contract. This contract, like a tyrant’s agreement, restricted everything about her. However, the contract indeed gave her a lot of room for development, and she also needed this contract. It was just clearly written in the contract that during the signing period, she must bring the company a net profit of three million. With Yu Linna’s current value, this was obviously impossible.

    But if she breached the contract, Yu Linna would have to pay a penalty of nearly eighty million yuan, an absurdly high figure.
    So no matter what, she couldn’t terminate the contract, unless she wanted to spend the rest of her life paying off debts.


    After that, work gradually stabilized. Yu Linna originally had part-time jobs outside, but as her commercial filming work increased, she gradually stopped going to those jobs. After a long time, she was definitely fired by the bosses.

    But now she could earn more money, so it didn’t matter, although she still felt a little heartache.

    One day, she finished filming a commercial and packed her things to go home. Her workload wasn’t large, but it was quite miscellaneous, requiring her to run around. It had only been a week since signing, yet she had filmed at least three commercials, all online ads, and the profit received wasn’t much. Because her value wasn’t high, she couldn’t earn much.

    She sighed. These past few days had really exhausted her. She didn’t know when it would end. They said signing with Orange River would have a future, but why didn’t she feel that way after signing? Instead, she felt she hadn’t done much, completely following others’ arrangements. Looking at the passing streets, it was still the familiar road, still the familiar crowd, only she had changed.

    “Hi, Classmate Linna, hello.”

    Suddenly, a female voice came from behind. She turned her head and saw a girl wearing glasses smiling at her.
    Judging by her face, she seemed a little nervous, but still remained calm and composed in front of her.

    “When were you here?”

    “When you came out of the company gate… ptooey, I just arrived! I happened to see you here!”

    So she was stalking her…
    Yu Linna felt a little panicked. Could this girl have some ideas about her? Why did she always want to get close to her? Although she was good-looking, was it necessary for even girls to stick to her? She wasn’t that charming, right?

    “Huo Ningning, I’m already very tired today. Stop bothering me, hurry up and go.”

    She waved her hand, signaling her to go back, giving her no face at all.
    Why did she do that? Wasn’t it because Huo Ningning always stuck to her, couldn’t be shaken off? After a long time, she also saw that she seemed to have ill intentions towards her. Yu Linna, who never liked being close to people, felt uncomfortable and took the initiative to distance herself.

    If Huo Ningning were a boy, her actions towards Yu Linna, including stalking, would have landed her in the police station for tea.
    This was also where Yu Linna felt uncomfortable.

    “Don’t, Classmate Linna, don’t go! Let’s go get something to drink, my treat!”

    “Thanks, but I’m tired, don’t want to go.”

    Yu Linna waved her hand, indicating she didn’t want to go. For someone like her who loved taking advantage to give up such an opportunity showed that she really didn’t want to be with Huo Ningning. Because being with Huo Ningning gave her no sense of security. Every time she saw Huo Ningning’s burning gaze, it felt like she wanted to eat her up.
    Therefore, she decisively gave up spending time with her. Although she was also a girl, she always felt she might accidentally lose her innocence to her.
    She might have forgotten she used to be a boy.

    “Don’t go, Linna!”

    Huo Ningning, making a desperate move, took a step forward and grabbed her arm, refusing to let go. Don’t underestimate her thin and small appearance; she was quite strong. Yu Linna couldn’t break free for a moment. Her brow furrowed slightly, her mood worsening considerably.

    “Please, don’t go. Stay by my side, okay…”

    She murmured, uttering incomprehensible words. Yu Linna didn’t understand the meaning.
    What exactly was this glasses girl doing?
    Their relationship didn’t seem that close yet.

    “Huo Ningning, can you let go? I have to go home.”

    Just looking at Huo Ningning’s gentle, weak face, ready to burst into tears at any moment, somehow, she really couldn’t get angry.
    Huo Ningning’s face was too gentle, making it impossible to blame her. She was like a flower in a greenhouse needing protection; no one would bear to question her. She naturally possessed this kind of magic.
    Yu Linna was no exception.

    “No, I’m afraid… I’m afraid I won’t hold on tight enough…”

    She actually showed such a weak side in front of her, and looked so helpless and pitiful, making it truly impossible for Yu Linna to cruelly refuse her. If she were still male, she probably wouldn’t have paid attention. But having lived as a girl longer than as a boy, she really couldn’t act with a male mindset.
    What’s more, she was also a girl; she couldn’t bring herself to blame her harshly.

    “Alright, I won’t go. Can you stop this?”

    She still refused to let go, her eyes stubborn, her face filled with determination.

    “How about I eat a meal with you…”

    Finally, Yu Linna could only say this.

    Only then did Huo Ningning’s face slowly relax. The hand gripping hers also loosened slightly, and she gradually calmed down. Unexpectedly, this method was the most effective.

    Yu Linna felt bitter. She didn’t want to be with this girl. Besides, she had stalked her all the way from the company entrance to the city center. Just thinking about it was scary. She was really afraid this glasses girl would eat her clean.

    “Seriously, having to grab me so tightly. Forget it, let’s go. I happen to be hungry too.”

    It was just one meal, Yu Linna comforted herself. Let Huo Ningning pay the bill later. She definitely wouldn’t pay.

    She sighed and walked towards the road ahead. Her back view was imprinted in Huo Ningning’s mind. That blonde hair flowed with the wind. Although Yu Linna had tied her hair up for work, looking a bit more intellectual, it was still that blonde hair, the familiar hair Huo Ningning knew. She had seen it countless times in class.

    And that back view, always looked so desolate in her eyes, just like in her memory, unchanged at all.

    Huo Ningning’s eyes gazed at that shadow, a trace of guilt deep within her eyes.
    Inexplicably, she remembered the blonde hair from her memory, the same back view, the same blonde hair. Except for the different location, basically everything was there.

    (“Mind your own business! What does it have to do with you? Is it your turn to care whether I’m okay or not!”)

    If there was a chance, could she rewrite history?

    She wasn’t the obedient girl the classmates said she was. She wasn’t as good as she appeared on the surface. Because her past self was truly terrible.
    She still clearly remembered the sadness written all over someone’s face.
    She swore she would never hurt anyone again, absolutely not.

    “What are you spacing out for back there? Aren’t you eating?”

    Suddenly, that girl turned around, her face filled with helplessness, even disgust.

    Huo Ningning was stunned, then quickly caught up, walking shoulder to shoulder with her.

    “I want to eat, I want to eat with you. Let’s go, my treat.”

    She just wanted to share common time with Yu Linna. Even if she didn’t know, it didn’t matter. She just wanted to spend a little more time with her.
    Having finally gotten the chance to get close, she wouldn’t let the opportunity slip away in vain. Absolutely not.


    Achoo!

    Suddenly, Fang Jianing, who was live-streaming PUBG at home, sneezed. She rubbed her nose. Strange, she didn’t have a cold.

    “I think I just heard Little Angel sneeze. Wow, don’t you think her voice is so nice?”
    “666, the anchor’s voice is so nice. Can you act cute a bit more~ Please, ying ying ying~”
    “Hahaha, the brother upstairs is definitely a talent for acting cute.”

    Fang Jianing looked at the lively live broadcast room and smiled slightly. Through her hard work, her fan count had become quite large over the years. Just on Bilibili, she had over a million fans, a very large number. Being able to sit among the top ten Bilibili uploaders wasn’t just boasting.

    Just the advertisements she took on usually were enough to support herself, not to mention donations. If it weren’t for her parents’ orders, she actually quite wanted to show her face.

    “By the way, I plan to update an anime roast video in a week. It’s a yuri-oriented anime. Thinking I haven’t updated videos recently, I’m afraid I’ll become irrelevant if I don’t make one.”

    Controlling her character to pick up an airdrop, wary of enemies appearing, Fang Jianing casually mentioned the video she planned to make recently.
    She hadn’t made the yuri-oriented anime roast she promised Yu Linna. She finally found time recently to watch a decent yuri-oriented anime. She thought she finally had material to use.

    “Emmmm, Little Angel, you’ve changed. Why did you switch to making yuri anime?”
    “Haha, it’s a video I promised a friend. Don’t worry, quality is definitely guaranteed.”
    “Anchor, what kind of friend made you specifically make a video for them?”
    “Emmmm… A very good friend.”

    She played the game, not avoiding this topic at all in the live broadcast room, a smile on her face.